Monday, April 30, 2007

Revision seemed more unencumbered now, really. I learnt to be more organised and well planned at least! Today was pretty random, with many ups and downs, i must say. Mrs goh said the composition was badly done. To think i can even ace it, i must be some kinda genius. I must not think too higly of myself this time, shan't be too complacent, cos i'll be too over confident and i'll end up failing instead.

My Loves<3

What little we say to one another often comes back in another guise. It's the same old game, everybody talking in circles.That's how i felt about you, no wonder we could never get along.

Sunday, April 29, 2007

I shouldn't be here. But sometimes, things can get so enticing, like going online instead of mugging for the mid years. But ah well, what's done is done right? Besides, chinese paper was over and it lifted my burden for revision. It sucked by the way, with all the unfamiliar chinese characters on the passage, which made it impossible for me to read or comprehend. So let's just miss the whole point of learning chinese instead of japanese okay?

Curses.

I wished i was a japanese born. Not being racist though, but i just hate studying for chinese, some gruesome dislike i guessed. Gah, i'm gonna flunk chinese anyway.
But english paper was alright. It was manageable. Everyone wrote a narrative essay, while i did an argumentative one, i hope i don't screw up. But seriously, the narrative writing was difficult, it was really limited for me at least, i couldn't find the correct theme and concept for the whole damn thing, so i actually gave argumentative essay a shot.

It's about the pros and cons of using Internet, by the way.

I hope i'll ace it :) My revision's doing pretty fine, at least i'm not behind time or maybe i am. The thing about many of my classmates/competitors are all having tuition and extra lessons is so pressurizing. My maths is the biggest worry right now, i doubt i'll ever score an a1.
And i'm desperate to get into the maths/science stream. I've actually decided not to look into the triple/elective science thingy, cos it's really time consuming. I might as well drop biology cos hell, i never want to picture myself being a doctor ever again. After watching nip tuck, i thought it was like bleah, stupid.

I'm one who cannot tolerate seeing gruesome organs. If that's your ambition, go ahead. I'll support you.

I think when i grow up, i wanna have a job that involves language:)
Write books perhaps?
Or maybe start my own line.

On the other hand, i did some productive shopping yesterday with vicki. I shopped a lil way too much, my mom killed me this morning.

I'm finally free:)
My excitement and laughter-
I had total control.
It's kinda hard to believe,
but you might never know what i'll do the next time.

P.S I think you've got the message from me.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Some people are just so far out,
and if you have a problem with me then too bad.
I guess you're gonna have to deal with it.
Sometimes you're just so irritating,
being the person whom i do not know at all.
Seriously, get the facts right before gabbing stuff that people do not want to hear.
You might be reading this,
or maybe not.
So i'm gonna make things clear, til you read this.
This, i say, should be the last post i'm posting due to mid years.
I hope you get the message by then.

G.A.L
You can't judge people the way you want to.
And if you'd consider me being shallow,
Then what about you?
Should you crap another shit about me,
i'll promise, i wouldn't procrastinate nor ponder if i should approach you.

(edited)
Just because you've got a pretty face,
and older/younger than me by freaking months,
doesn't make you any stronger.
Shallow bitch.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I'm hungry and mugging had made me even more famished. God, please help me.
Haven't been eating any decent meals for the past few days since last week. And yesterday's subway sandwich for dinner didn't keep me going. Skipped lunch cos of dumb maths lesson, and now i'm biting my nails while waiting impatiently for dinner.

So much for the mid years i guess.

I can't wait for sunday, cos sundays just make me go happy. Have i talked about it a lot? I guess i did. I want to go shopping with my girlfriends, it's dreads to see me going online shopping. I hate examinations. But then again, i wouldn't be able to hang around town or the mall often so i guess this is the time to do some saving up for t100:D Yes, t100. That's a very huge hint for my mom:)
Chinese mid year exam tmr, so i better do some catching up though i left only 3 chapters to study. But i can always revise again form the start right?

Omg, i'm such a nerd.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Have you ever felt so stressed and cocked up just trying to get people to listen and understand what you're actually tryna talk about? It happens to me all the time. And i've been thinking of this extremely random thing and i've decided to post everything out that comes into my mind. So pardon me.

As i was saying, feeling miserable and bad about something that you've debate/argued with another party can tick you off real easily. But what happens if you've got nothing to say and it shows that your 'enemy' actually won? Big deal, i've actually thought of ways to deal with them further. Some people just love saying out their perfect quote-all the time, repeatedly, you just have nothing to say, and it actually leaves us to feeling appalled.

FAVOURITE QUOTE OF THE YEAR, for some people:) Which i think it was very funny.

1. Clarissa
- 'stop it larh kun kit!!!'- 'no one's supposed to touch my hair!'
- (my fav) 'DON'T TOUCH MY HAIR, IT'S MADE UP OF THE BEST MINERALS AND NUTRIENTS.'
If that ever occured to you, just keep playing with her hair kay? Technically, she doesn't mind at all.

2. Marcus wee
HE'LL EITHER;
-nods head
-shakes head
-shrugs
-(or worse) doesn't reply to you at all cos he's in lala land.
My solution, don't talk to him in the 1st place, hahahaha!!!!

3. Katherine MA
-'SAVE THE EARTH'
If you had a pack of used tissue, just dump it to her since she's willing to recycle or reuse them:) Good work kat, polar bears just love you.

4. Vera
-she'll sabotage you with some innocent strangers, i swear she does.
-laugh out loud for no reason in particular.
Solution-stay away from her.

And at last, ME.
5. Caroline
- 'what is fu4 weng1?'
- i'm just trying to test your chinese basics cos heck, i'm horrible at it. So if you got this wrong, then i must say i'm better than you.
solution; the next time you come across this qn, please reply and answer as a 'rich man' instead of a 'fishermen'.

Don't get the joke? Too bad, crack it if you want :)

NOTE: this is a dumbass post which you've actually wasted your time in your life reading. I'm just a complete mess after all this mugging.
Good day.

Monday, April 23, 2007

It's kinda amazing what caroline had been up to these past few days. All she did was study study study, that nothing goes into her mind but equations, chinese characters, historical places/years, topographical maps, vocabulary, formulas, scientific facts and so on...

And true enough, i've been studying chinese for a solid hour :D
And if you know me well enough, i used to stash my chinese text into the cupboard and couldn't care anything but to flunk the whole dumb test.

Result = i've been getting As for chinese :DD And i've got an A1 for english, that's the biggest achievement that i've achieved so far :D

Realise, i'm using smiley faces, so you should be able to imagine how happy i was. Anyway, i cannot wait for june, cos it'll be then where i'll be able to get my drivers license :D And my mom alrdy signed up for stupid dumb courses, and i bet i'm the youngest participant out there.
Is it called illegal driving? Cos i'm only 14 and i'll be behind the wheel in exactly one month's time.
Ah well, who cares, i hope i don't bang onto a tree:)

My grandpop is leaving for Osaka in exactly 5 hours time. Omg, i'm gonna miss him! No more jap converstaions anymore, well for at least a week or so.
But still, i'm gonna miss him, and his cooking!

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Saturday, April 21, 2007

me: you scared of clarissa right?
kun kit; no la. scared of her for what.
* a few seconds later*
kun kit; okay la, maybe a little bit.
me; haha, but you always bully her. what will she do if you beat her?
kun kit; she'll beat me back la, aboden.
me; pull her hair?
kun kit; she'll shout and say 'my hair! my hair! its made out of the best nutrients and minerals!'
me; omg, you're kidding.
kun kit; come la, i show you.

*both kun kit and i walked to clarissa*
kun kit; *pulls hair*
clarissa; OMG, MY HAIR!!!!!!!
kar yee; eh kun kit, don't like that la!
kun kit; *tugs again.*
clarissa; STOP IT LARH KUN KIT! IT'S MY HAIR OKAY!
kun kit; your hair? yah, what about your hair?
clarissa; stop pulling it, it's made up of the best nutrints and minerals!!!
me; omg, HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!

My retarded sef revision timetable.

It's lagging, and i would have to go now to keep up with it, goodbye!

Friday, April 20, 2007

How would i rather spend my thursday afternoon/evening (til dinner) besides having 3 hours of retarded tuition and additional 2 hours of retarded self revision?
Dang. And my timetable seemed to be unrealistic than ever.
Biology test was crap. I completely wasted 10 minutes of my time tackling a stupid question which actually carries almost half the mark of the whole test paper. And those application questions are actually easy, but to think that i could ace it as easy as i call it, i think i'm just being unrealistic and i should stop dreaming about it.

I should have studied.

Should i fail the test, it's actually pretty predictable and expected.
I shall kiss my marks goodbye.
Oh, did home econs practical today. Ms williams sure got pissed by me and clarissa cos we kept bugging her, by asking her stupid questions like 'where the hell is the ricotta cheese' and so on- repeatedly. And she pointed the refrigerator continuously, but we were too stupid, we just couldn't find the item that we want, even though it was right at the corner of our eyes, or perhaps i should say, we were actually holding onto it.
But our strawberry french toast was pretty and yummy!




I especially L O V E chunzhi's and li ting's zucchini, omg. It was gone by like 5 minutes. And it was mostly eaten by me, haha. Chun zhi and liting kept grumbling.

Mini concert after school. And being called a mini concert, it was really 'mini'. Like there were only 4 performances? Fizah did a pretty good job i shall say, though it was kinda weird having the song played out by an electric guitar.

Why doesn't anyone pick an acoustic one?

And marcus wee totally screwed up his lines, no offence but yeah. It was too obvious, everyone noticed that and he made many mistakes for not more than one time.
Bad memory i shall say? Cos memorising lyrics last minute never worked. But performance was okay, i think he sounded better singing english song rather than chinese song, not because i hate chinese song, but it's about the verbal kinda thing. Get what i mean?
I mean, seriously. Try making a caucasian sing a mandarin song, and a chinese sing an english song, it's just weird. Same applied to some people. They just sounded better singing songs of different language:)
Don't try listening to me singing in the shower, just know that. Haha.

I saw zheng hao again today!
*recalls karma story*
Oh,no. Haha.
And i've came to realised that many people are pretty skeptical about certain issues. Like me having a new boyfriend called ryan? Hahahhahaha! Which is totally untrue. I've came to know no ryan. Well maybe except one, which was actually ashlee simpson's ex boyfriend. So yeah, get the right story kay?
And just because i'm unavailable, doens't mean that i alrdy have a boyfriend. I don't intend to actually.

Single, Alive and kickin' :D

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

I've been so screwed recently, i think i felt suckier than i ever was, and people gives me shit all the time, you could've imagine how sucked up i was.

But a cool, refreshing shower helps :)

I don't know why, but certain people just love venting out their inner child at me, by doing all sorts of nonsensical and stupid stuff. I can't seem to comprehend the joy of pushing me into a younger boy, who's literally a BHB (<-hokkien/canto, either which), trying to pull of a smart move by doing push ups and manly actions.

Which was totally irrelevant and displeasing. It was so disgusting but 3 against one, what can i say. Numbers always wins, plural are always more. And even when i tried squatting or sitting down on the floor, vicki, lucinda and katherine just dragged me further.

Tskkkk, some people.

Chemistry practical test was pretty much screwed, i got so nevous that i never realised i got burnt by the heated test tube again, until the whole test was over. It was then i felt this burning sensation on my palm and i dare not to tell mrs chia cos well... She seemed unapproachable. Lol. it still hurts by the way. I hope i'll be excused to not jot down notes from the board tmr.
Had tuition with study buddies yohan and vera. And guess what, there was this caucasian who popped by to say hi, and chatted with us casually, being so outgoing and friendly. Awww, what a cutie. Man, why can't asians be more friendly like them.
Brief conversations goes a long way, i love casual talks especially with someone who are totally different form you.

I saw liew zheng hao again today. I keep bumping onto him these days. And hey, you know what? I believe in karma and i'm thinking that maybe one day, just one day, i would just be his girlfriend for real, haha, kidding!
But still.....
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!
OMG, NO! Eh eh eh, shit, cannot cannot.
*smacks head* *smacks head* - repeatedly.
I'm unavailable by the way:)

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

me ; *giggles*
melvin; *stares*
me; *smiles*
melvin; what? why are you laughing?
me; *laughs*
melvin; what what what? what is it? tell me leh, tell me!

:)

Today wasn't really my day. To start off with this unpleasant scenario, can somebody just explain to me why do i always hop onto wrong cabs that are mostly mercs or volkswagen ones and they always have cabbies who could not identify and locate where the hell is new town secondary.
Is new town really that bad?
Cos heck, some cabbie actually wanted to take me to NEWTON.
Not new town, omg.
Worst still, it was a volkswagen cab. And meters shoots up everytime. My heart just died. For the price i'd have to pay, i'd say it's so unreasonable.
Was a good thing i stopped him in the knick of time, or else, i wouldn't be able to find my way back. I hate taking cab to school, but i was late, so what else can i do.
I think i need a chauffeur, lol.
And mummy please buy yourself a mercs so that i could drive your altis. I'll be getting my license this june anyway :D
Oral today was crap. I screwed the whole goddamn thing. I crapped non stop to the teacher and i even procrastinated to head my way to the 'hot' seat, where you'll be invigilated. I pondered on too many words, and the topic about renting a maid was crapshit. I hope mdm long wouldn't fail me, being the best chinese teacher around in sec1 :D But the dumbest thing was that i used english words to describe how i feel. The word ''abuse children'' just popped out of my mouth. Jeez. And i replied her a one or two words sentence.

I doubt i'll pass.

-

Why is it that everytime i close my eyes,
To have a little slumber,
And when i opened my eyes eventually,
Why....
Why is it that i always feel like i'm 5cm taller?

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
Is it me or...?
Is it gotta do with my physical growth or mental problem?
Whichever it is,
I've concluded that human beings are interesting.

Monday, April 16, 2007

School, however, was pretty contradictory. There were many highs and plentiful of lows. Tsk, what better could life get.
I got pissed by ipw, ewww, the thought of it just haunts me. Vinegar was all over my uniform and the sun's heat this morning was unbearable. But afterall, there were happy moments :D

I L O V E geography lessons, never fail to brigthen up my day/week and no more monday blues.
Mr roy tan was talking about telcommunication hubs or whatever, i love cranky jokes from kun kit and mr tan. God, they made such an incredible feat.

Mr tan; see? japanese MTR line is so much more complicatd than s'pore's MRT line.
Kun kit; ehhh, no lah!
Mr tan; and do you know that the MTR there is always packed with people that security guards there would have to push everyone inside the MTR so that the dorr could shut close.
Kun kit; EH! like that can take advantage leh! (man over woman, molest, you get the picture.)
Mr tan; kun kit, no one would think that way, only you do.
Whole class: hahahahahahha.

After school, vicki&lucinda&katherine went over to my house to get the bloody ipw project done. But on our way, we saw Eric. Omggggg, i'd almost die, not because of heart thumping and palm sweating, it's the embarrassment and shame that kills. Vicki waived at him and he waved back, unexpectedly. And she's always talking about him on the bus. And both of them were always laughing.

It's so obvious (too obvious) that vicki likes him, right? Or maybe the otherwise. I don't know, i don't care either.

Me; dude, forget about your whoever guy, you might as well take him.
vicki; but he's younger. i don't go for younger guys.
me; urgh, like he's very short. Dude, the height is there. Its compatible. besides, stop dreaming about your ever so tall guy. be realistic.
vicki; yuck, no way.
me; but it's the coolest trend for girls to date younger guys what. its the new golden era!
vicki; you like, you take la.
me; no thanks. height not there. he's good for you. Mmmm (gives satisfying look)
vicki; (rolls eyes)

But indeed, she was happy. In a secretive way. Awww, how sweet :D

Then there was this indian guy, who keeps talking crap all the time, saying that we're the baking bitches since we were doing our vinegar and baking soda project. Omg, just go to hell okay?
Anyway, i like lucinda's chinese accent :D
I bet it's way funnier than mine.

Harvey used to tell me, absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Does it really go that way?
Maybe, maybe not.

God, i miss talking to him already D:
I love the madness when he keeps bugging me :D
Really.
Okay, whatever.
Omg, harvey, just say whatever you want to say okay?

Sunday, April 15, 2007

SUNDAY :D

I love sundays, well not for any reasons in particular, but it's always the day that i've been expecting for in the whole week, and sure enough, the week just went by in a flash, when you're expecting something at the end.

It's like a child's treat, get what i mean?

Met up with katherine at clementi to have lunch, and after that, we made our way to dover to get wheels from raymond. He's such a great help, i wonder what would qy think of us if we hadn't accomplished our ipw project.
Service was G R E A T. Toured around expo with kat just to find gatorade, but they were not sold anywhere. And i think its ridiculous. Why wouldn't anyone sell the most famous sports drink?
Anyhow, went to changi to for dinner with the rest of the cell grp. Intended to do our project in an open field, but we didn't since we were so unproductive.
Next week's gonna be a horror. Test, exam, test, exam, must, study, must, study - these words just keep ringing in my head. But i didn't take the initiative to urge further in doing these.
I need support, badly.





Nobel award for childplay goes to none other than fat-soh barney.

Popeyes!


Clarissa said, ''why would they put a camera there?''
Then she pops out the answer saying, ''oh, i know already. They scared people steal the chicken''
LOL, when actually, their afraid of people hijacking the counter's cashier.

I take things to heart. Everything, even the things that people do, or say. I understand that i'm much of a headache cos of my nuisance, and i respect the fact that some people cannot tolerate me. I'm a kid at heart. And if you're telling me that this kid doesn't suit in me, then too bad, it's just the way it is. All Christians should have the concept on everything was made by God. Even the stars, the sun, the earth, the moon, the sea, the land, living creatures and of course, human beings, were all created by Him.
Am i not created by Him?
Or am i just influenced by other people around me? I don't think so.
Am i in the wrong to hang out with friends that i've made, regardless if their size, appearance and character?
I think that's ridiculous.
Plain ridiculous.

So the next time you try to pout something out, think twice. Cos people might not feel the way you do, nor will they have the same judgement.
Earnestly, i'd really appreciate it if you could just keep it yourself, before we start the wrong foot here.

Thank you very much:)

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Went to town with aijia to catch freedom writers. Little did we know that it was a night show and we couldn't possibly catch it since aijia's got a curfew.

*psst* She lied to her mom that we were doing some geography project in some nerdy library since she's so called grounded due to exams. Lol.

So we intended to watch meet the robinsons, but contemplated. I cried most of the time cos of bloody shoe. My feet's dysfunctional now, and it's out of a fatigue figure. I guess this are things that girls would tolerate just to make herself pretty dressed up, yeah?
Well, not so for me. I actually wanted to exchange shoes with aijia but her's was a size 9, while mine was size 7. So yeah, don't think about it. So...I was forced to my a new ripples and heck, i think it's plain ridiculous. But hey, my feet was like bleeding all over and plasters and stickies don't work. You could have seen me whining back then.
After much procrastination, we finally got to book our ticks. We decided to watch the last mimzy, cos i can't stand myself watching cartoon though i'm not in a very old age to watch that. Had pepperlunch, then headed off to the cinema, but sadly, we went to the wrong level again and again and i almost died cos one inch with my flats means one year is being reduced in my life. Yeah, that's how painful it is. And as much as i want to entice or even protest myself to continue further, i kinda jerked, too many times, sharp external pain just kill me somehow.
Movie wasn't that bad, though it's kinda mythical and so narnia, it was pretty cool. Forget the lame and childish title, storyline was alright.
(but the basic concept of the movie was all about science and...dna, haha!)
Oh you can kill me for being such a ruiner, i simply cannot resist. Yaya, you go watch it anyhow.
Went to sony after that. Aijia went crazy over the new sony w88oi, and i went crazy over the t100.
Thank God i hadn't purchased T10 or T50, if not my life would be full of regrets.





Mine in the next 2 (or less,hopefully) months :) I hope honkong sells new different design/colour, and i hope its cheaper, cos me and my mom would be flying there soon.

I saw this Australian man/lady, talking to each other as if they knew each other very well, but were strangers. How friendly, so i was thinking, wouldn't it be great to have Caucasians (friendly people, in general) around you? Haha, kay, i'm gonna tell mom not to buy the Cosmopolitan, hmmm, maybe buy a new house at Kings Cross!

And it's not the australia kings cross i'm talking about. I want to migrate somewhere and have tons of pretty caucasians to ogle at :D

Friday, April 13, 2007

Y E S T E R D A Y

'' Tmr is commendation day, and sad to say that you guys would be staying behind to be audiences. And the pretty fun thing about it is that ALL of your sec2 camp pictures would be revealed to the whole school and everyone would have a good laugh at you.''

Thursday, April 12, 2007

I love how the internet works, do you?

Like i've viewed tons and tons of different profile/blogs/journal online and somehow i've gotten my long lost primary school friends' links. And heck, their not from Gesps, but their all from haig girls' school.
Haha, it's weird seeing them all grown up right now. Like our favourite signature sentence (always) used to be 'hmph, i don't friend you already' and the next minute you'll go 'okay, i friend you back', lol!
It's funny how these memories, they last. And being able to catch up with them seemed more enticing than meeting new friends out there. I've caught up with ee ling pretty much, and would you believe that we ended up in the same Church on the same year and even did our encounter on the same time too? I remembered distinctively that we used to hate each other and stuff. But now, we're more than just hi and goodbye friends:)

-

School's such a pain to me now. Everybody thinks that i've quieten down a lot. Is it just me or is it the way people look at me? I don't know, you decide. But what i've heard was that i used to be pretty loud, smacking people's back, shouting out loud about plans after school. But most people said that i just disappeared right after school, and it tells that it's totally not me cos i hanged out after school a lot.
I couldn't agree more. Home, is like my sanctuary, but it haunts me everytime due to boredom. Hmm, pretty contradictory. But anyhow, mid years are coming and homework seemed to be piling up, so it's good i'd be home doing them.
Went to town after school together with karyee&aijia&lucinda to get my braces done. Skipped guides:) I was happy. Dr george, please set my next appointment, and every other appointment after the next, to fridays and in that way, i wouldn't have to care a shit about guides anymore. I regretted joining it and i think i'm gonna quit.
Haha, call me a looser, but i'm pondering if i really, really should. I couldn't care less about cca point, fail me on that, i don't care. I care too much for my studies, i don't give a darn on tree planting and sisters bonding forever, *draw cutesy face and hearts everywhere*, and of course, camping.

Ewww.

I'm kinda pissed at myself, for not studying last night. Like i've told myself a million times, 'carol, be sure you study by 2030, but guess what? I slept through from 2000 to 2300, haha!
Tossed and turned and finally turned in at 0000.
And i have much catching up to do. Bye!

I shall be blissfully ignorant about tmr,
I could just die thinking of it.
So what? No biggy.
I'll die socially anyway :/

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

When you're trying to revise and mug the whole day for the upcoming exams, and some stranger called you right in the middle of the day, you're apt to think that some drunk-dialing guy was just fiddling with his cellphone, punching through numbers, hoping to have some lady on the other line as the victim just to 'hang out' and everything. Well, not so for me at least. But i got kind irritated when there's this person who kept calling me about 7 to 10 times, in 5 minutes. And the first time i picked up the phone, all i could hear was static noises coming through the other line.

I'm getting scared now.

Why is everyone hitting for 80(s) combo while i'm still stuck right at the bottom of 75, huh? I think i'll need to practise maths everyday, though it sure is a torture to me but i think it's worth it.
I don't know how i'm gonna face these few weeks of doom in school. School haunts me sometimes, especially when mid year's just around the corner.

Daddy oh daddy, give me energy :D

But one thing i've come to realise is that when you look forward to something for the week, time actually passes by real quickly. I've been looking forward to service everyday and sure enough, i never realised that today is wednesday. I thought i was still caught up in the midst of those monday blues.

But bad thing is, i'm days and weeks closer to mid year.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

I'm 1/7's hot topic in secondary one's history. I don't know how to face school and i am so dreading for recess every now and then. Sure, i got irritated by vicki for telling out, out of point and nonsensical things about me having this edgy on some sec1 guy called eric, but i wouldn't mind though, if people keeps talking about it, cos i absolutely do not know him-at all.
So if you had good or even basic logical thinking, you should know that i wouldn't like this kind of person cos heck, he ain't handsome at all. Eyecandy's a different story. Gah, nevermind, you simply just cannot read through people's mind, can you? :D Leave me a message if you're thinking what i'm thinking. I would greatly appreciate it :D
Plus, i'm in sec2 and i wouldn't like dating a guy younger than me, much less having a crush on him. So, who cares anyway? Besides, this is another step closer of me, being through and done believing you. It's no biggy, and i don't have to be so hard getting over it. Why do i have to go a huge round, if i could go straight to snap that line of yours?

:)

It's hard to convince yourself to stay awake through chemistry lesson. It's was soooo boring, i could have died, but luckily i didn't, but instead i slept through the whole lesson, without getting caught :)
And worse still, i slept through mr kannan's class, and i'm gonna get a fair bit of warning from mrs goh later on this week. I'm positively sure of that.
But on the other hand, i was so proud of myself, i'm almost done with revision on history and i'm now moving on to biology. Although chinese was the first killer, i wouldn't want spending too much time revising it cos i know if i were to study for it now, i'll most likely forgot the whole of chinese vocabulary by next week.
So perhaps, or i should rather say, the best thing is, mug chinese next week, or maybe 3 day before the paper.

I can see i'm pretty well organised now. But my timetable's pretty unrealistic. Like i plan to revise my work for 4 hours on a weekdays, and 5 hours on weekends. Well obviously not in one shot. I guess i'll have to turn in as 'late' as 2a.m just to get everything done.
But believe it or not, i had been studying for 4 hours on weekdays, but weekends are hard to keep track of.

Should i get a vintage polariod? It'll be cool to snap pictures with it...
Shall i? Shall i?
My mom's so sweet, she promised me to get new gadgets when we're going off to hongkong this holiday :D Yay! Oh yeah, have i told you guys that i'm moving pretty pretty soon? Well, not so soon though, in 2 years time, which is soon to me. I think we're moving to The cosmopolitan, if i hadn't remember correctly.

Will you be my neighbour, lucinda?

The year's passing by in the snap of our fingers, i wonder what i would be doing in 7 years time.

Monday, April 09, 2007

Vera left me a huge deep impression on someone and now i've been thinking about it lately. No one in particular, really, i'm just wondering why such people exist. But i think vera should have already forgotten about what she crapped last night so i guess it isn't really a huge matter.
I actually thought that we would be having chinese oral today, but thankfully it was next week. IPW, geography project and tests are such a rush. Mid year are only two weeks time. My clock's ticking and i could count the number of days with my fingers. So i assume that you know how short time would pass. My group's so screwed, they made a bad, bad choice of picking me as the leader. So if i had affected anybody's science marks then please accept my apology cos i was never really an organised nor a responsible person.
You could blame me for not doing my part but what can i do if i had unluckily fallen sick on that very day. I can't possibly go to school with a mild fever and even if i did, would i be able to absorb and digest everything the teacher taught, and everything that had been written on the board?
English lesson was fun. The whole class just sat in one huge circle in class and we practically passed papers around, jotting down the strenghts and weaknesses about the person. And did you know what my weaknesses in friendship are?

Bad/hot tempered, mood swings.

Geez, pretty true actually. I could be fiddling with youe hair and being so happy with you for a minute and then getting grumpy and sour the next. There was this once where i scolded some guy in my class (i just know it's some guy from my class, i couldn't remember the person), even when he was absolutely not at fault. Yeah well, those are my weaknesses so far. Only two :/ *looks away*

Okay fine, i lied. So what? Some guy wrote something else under my weaknesses and i couldn't help but laugh at the sight of it.

'' Oh, Caroline likes to sleep in class''
'' Always sleeping in class''
'' Doze off in class almost in every lesson''

HAHAHAHAHA!!! But do you know what my classmates suggested about Grace's weaknesses?

She always dread PE, she always don't exercise, she's a lazy pig, LOL!
(No wonder she's getting fatter, kidding!)

Okay, i'm mean. But hey, i don't mind people calling me petty and hot tempered, i guess it's how God created me? And same goes to everyone else, it's just the matter of how he created you, that's all. And besides, i'm not the kind who gets angry without any reason. I'm reasonable yet i still find people's right (or wrong) acts in skepticism. I'm just like that, i don't know why. I'm sure many people are pretty doubtful on the things that they do, but i'm not the kind who could be bothered in such stuff.
My strengths are mainly all the same. That is: loud, funny, laughs hysterically. And i find it funny and weird somehow that people just loved hearing and actually appreciated my hysterical, out-of-the-world, loud and unglamorous laughter.
Man, do you know that i used to blame myself for laughing so unglamorously cos it actually made my friends feel embarrassed and sometimes it gets too loud that it actually annoyed and attracted people's attention? They could turn around my back and say 'what a bitch' once they hear me laugh again. Haha.
So anyway, went to sp with the girls. But grace left her wallet in school so both of us made our own way back again to school just to get her bloody wallet. Omg, my legs killed me. I couldn't stand any longer, it got too serious that we actually cabbed to sp, and that's plain ridiculous to the cabbie cos sp is actually directly beside my school. It took no longer than 10 minutes (at constant speed) just to get there form my school, yeah, that's how near it is. But ah well. So when we tried to search high and low for the others, they were at T1 having macs and we're like all the way back at T16. My legs burned even before we reached 'checkpoint' T10. Believe it or not, that's how my stamina works.
I hate blogger in a way, my photos from the previous post just vanished out of nowhere. Ooooh, and i think i need a new camera, since my old camera's cover came off literally. I think Polaroid is soooo cool, but it's big and heavy, yet pretty vintage. I like vintage-pictures. But neh, maybe i'll just rent one.
I'm waiting very very patiently for my nicest and dearest uncle kang to get my mac fixed.

At the time being,i would have to start pressing that study button somewhere (on my body) right now. Cos at the rate i'm going, i'm not so very well organised in my revision for the mid year.

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Hello dear all!! I'm back from Easter party!!!!! Wooohoooo, it was a blast! Those of you who missed it will have nothing but sheer regrets, lol.
I don't know what's wrong with vicki. She always shows up if she wants to, not thinking of what people might feel. I mean, there's no need for you to worry if you won't get along with people that are acquaintances, right?
Anyhow, she's not even coming to church tmr, I just don't get it.

I skipped lunch. Actually no. There was no lunch for me. So i was looking forward to the food in the party but heck, eating time was only after 4. So yeah, you could have imagine how hungry i was.
But kangwei, edmond and jerry fed me with laughters. The whole room was filled with shrill laughters, mainly from me, i think. I enjoyed myself today, it was worthwhile.
And in addition, i DID studied a bit of language today, uh hurh, both Chinese and English. Oh and maths too. I'm so proud of myself, i think this is exactly the way how i wanted to start my new week. Say goodbye to emoish caroline, i'm happy now.

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From a heavily close relationship to a light one,
I felt as bad as what i had done these past few weeks.
But true friendship never is lost.
It takes a different form, that's all.
I can't always have it my way,
Nor can i have things started and ended the way I'd expected.
This senses weakens, while other heightens.
Reconciliation is the key,
But i just had no idea where to start.

It's just so weird having me missing vicki, i don't know why, but i missed the days that we were true to ourselves. And the days where we wouldn't give a damn shit about what people think of us cos of our idiosyncrasy and spasticity, i just loved the way how strong and enthusiastic we were. I wouldn't say we aren't like that now, nor do i ask or give a peremptory demand for it, i just miss it and i'm just reviewing what we had done so far.
Maybe these were the culmination of me being so sad and moody, cos i always lack of something, and demand it imperiously for things much more than what i had received.

I'd just wish i could restore relationships with people that aren't getting along with me.
On the other note i'm fine with new people around as well.
I'm not disappointed nor angry with anyone or even with myself,
I just missed those days we were all always together.

I guess that's the main point of having memories, ain't it?

laughs.

'Caroline, you're so weak'

I just did the stupidest thing i had ever done in my whole entire life.
All cause of my mac.
*curse curse curse*

I MISSED BILLBOARDS, EVEN THOUGH I HAD TAKEN NOTE OF IT DAYS BEFORE.
Is there an encore?

Friday, April 06, 2007

Thursday, April 05, 2007

I love Russel Peters, he makes me laugh all the time :)
His videos are hilarious, makes you go WA KA KA KA.

This is very sad news, uh-oh. I dread to tell this to you guys but i've got to say it anyhow.

For those who had sampled/munched/gobbled/pleaded/ate/swallowed any of my meiji choco babys, i'm gonna say sorry, cos it's over it's expiry date.

Not a joke, but if you guys had a tummyache then i'm not the one to be blamed cos hey, i never realised it til this afternoon and i'm positively sure that almost 70% of my classmates had eaten it in class. It's a huge tube of chocs you see, so there's always more to spare. Imagine 70% of the students form 2/1, rushing for the toilet during the recess. I'm sorry, i'm sorry. Expiry date was january07 and its like april now! Hahahaha!
But this wasn't the worse after all. Expired rocher is bad for the tounge, believe me. Many people just keep feeding me overdue stuff, gags.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Awwww, clarissa's in love :) That's so sweet. Cos i swear the last words that i heard from her was 'i don't want to get married', haha lol.

I'm so sad and disappointed today. I don't want to talk about it. I've realised that i've been such a fool for these past 3 months, i don't want to screw my april- and for the rest of my life. Again, i was angry at myself for not putting in effort in the things that i do.
Why, why, why do i always feel enthusiastic in studying at the wrong time? I was in great mood and i studied for long hours but all these are just last minute. I can never do revision before hand. Plus, today's tests was such a goner, i could have killed myself.

I'm so dead, i don't want to screw my mid years. I'll work myself off and make sure i give outstanding marks. Oh, revision never worked out for me without prayers. So, i'm gonna study/pray harder this time.
Well, tuition today was a good start. I cleared all my doubts on algebra and i managed to complete all of holiday(easter) homework in 1 hour :) Beams :)
Sweets and chocolates are the best for me when i'm studying. It's theorectically proven that studying burns sugar in your body, lol.

GodivaGodivaLoveeeeeeeee :D

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

I don't know why, but i just love tests and exams cos it keeps me motivated to study, which is good. And the fact that i'm always studying, through day and night, this means that i'm busy and being busy keeps me away of things that i worry and feel sad about. Besides, it made me feel accomplished instead of feeling so helpless. And hello, i calculated that i have been studying for like 5 hours (bigshot) til 0100 or maybe 0200, i can't remember. But i woke up feeling too energised, that i woke up in the morning as early as 0330 but feel back to sleep at 0430 or maybe 0530. So by the time vera tried to wake me up, i was nothing but a dead zombie. Hmmm, why do i keep getting the time wrong? Because ms ang told me very long ago, that i'm always reading measurements/recordings/readings wrongly due to parallax error. It's weird how i can still remember the way my teachers nag at me. Gah, anyhow.

Studying just makes me happy :)

Call me a nerd for now, but i reckoned i'll be throwing off my books once mid year ends, ah well.

I've got to admit,
I had never seen someone so crazy in love with another person.
Usually i thought it was only me,
But the fact that i could never see my own reaction at that moment,
I find it an amusing sight, really.
Like when a girl's heart jumps and tingles uncontrollably,
And when she screams and shouts and blushes, haha.
And since it's all over,
I kinda missed that feeling.
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Clarissa just looked too happy for her self being.

Monday, April 02, 2007

I'm neither happy, nor sad.
I was never close to in between.
I'm just feeling blank,
About what i did and what i intended to.
Everything's a complete mess.
And now i've been answering the stupid hows and whys,
Which is totally irrelevant.
I'm not in a mood to do anything right now.
I don't understand how lousier i get as the days pass.
Fun and excitment is out of the list,
I don't know why i preferred sleeping through day and night,
Just to missed these things out.
I feel bad and i'm very particular about everything.
I'm always accusing myself at fault.
My apologies,
To everyone who are sick and tired of me,
And to anyone who i've pissed or hurt or offended.

If i can contolControlling my smile, laughter and excitement, is the culmination of me leaving the tough game behind.
Actually, i never really controlled it,
I actually dealt with it and got over it.
That's the only part where i'm proud and happy about.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

I want to go back kindergarden and practise my abc's instead of mugging everything about the human environment.

Felt like crap today, wasn't in a good mood til now.
Urgh, i feel sick, emotionally and physically.

Carolineroberts
I'm genuinely exquisite and an extrovert
I have my moody days, everybody does, right?

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