Saturday, March 31, 2007

Flying over a nation to another isn't fun at all. Yuck. Got scolded by mom, ama and i hate myself for being such a bitch. I'm fucken pissed right now, and worse of all it's not my periods that's giving me boo-hoos. Argh, let me just be ms blame-it-on-the-world for this time.

First off, grand opening sucked, i had to attend every aunties and uncles' needs and yuck, i hate that. And besides, it left me no time to do or even revise my work, it's disastreous cos there will be 5 test next week. If you hadn't known, i've been mentioning that many times so i take it as you now how important studying is to me. If i don't ace those test then i make sure i jump down the building, even if it will take me to hell.
Invitation sucked. I haven't been a good designer. True, i'm talented and artistic in sketching or shading but please, i'm not always good at art. So if it's the handwriting, layout or design that you're talking about, you better don't throw me on that job cos i'm the kind of person who doesn't do things in effort just as long as it doesn't interst me. Vicki's so good in writing, clarissa's talented in drawing, kat's excellent in layouts, but i'm not. So no doubt that this bloody job ticks me off easily cos i seriously have a short shelf-life of patience and the fact that it doesn't interest me at all. And i can't turn down the request and i know i'm mean to express out all my anger but blogging seems to be the best way to vent out my anger RIGHT NOW, so bear with me. If not, go ahead and click that [x] at the top right hand corner of this screen, if you do not wish to see how bitchy and mean and horrible i can get.
Just because i wasn't off to camp, doesn't mean that it made me ''so free'' cos hell, what i've been doing these past few days was pretty much struggling between family and work. Flying over to indonesia and back here again in singapore takes two trips, that means two days are wasted cos i wasn't doing anything on the plane. And i'm only off for 4 days, and if your maths are up to kindergarden standard then you should know that 4days minus 2 wasting days equals to 2 busy days. Duh! Trying to juggle everything in two days is not easy.
Okay fine, i've been delaying for a week but hey, last week was nothing but test test test, homework homework homework, tuition tuition tuition, that's it, i've had enough.

It's only invitation cards, but its a huge deal to my grades. Streaming or party, i'd rather give up partying than sweeping the floor for my future job cos i couldn't ace streaming.

Whatever, small things irritate me sometimes. I'm not angry with anybody, i'm just angry at myself for being such a bitch. Funny that a person can piss herself, but yeah, i'm that kinda person. I always put myself at fault and i'm betraying myself. So i guess that's what made me struggle too much.

'I'm looking out for Your sanctuary NOW'


I missed camp. fuck, fuck, FUCK!!!!!

Okay, nevermind. Shopping was good, it makes me happy esp when i shop alone, so that mom wouldn't brag about this and that. Take price tag for example.
As soon as i get my ass to singapore, everyone would be telling me how much fun i'd missed, ohmygod, that sucked pretty much. But i'm sure the turn up of my khaki would cheer me up yeah?
I'm going back soon. If it wasn't for sunday, i wouldn't want to leave, it's so nice here, cos i don't have to stress on work. Speaking of which, there will be 5 test coming up next week, which leaves me such a muddlehead cos what i've been doing for these past few days was study study study, my head's gonna burst any time.
Worse of all, i haven't done the invitation for easter party, ewww, why can't vicki do it, since she's so good in art, and the fact that i'm not, and that i'm busy here for some grand opening my mom's having. Tsk, i'm busy enough to invite people to church.

You're not the bigshot here around.
So what if we have the same interest and hobbies?
We could be two out of a million.
You can never judge how God created us.
So don't give me attitude in your 'myspace',
Cos i don't give a damn.
If you want to protest, do it infront of me in school.
Don't claim like you have title, cos seriously you don't.
I don't believe the term 'strength in numbers'
What's strength when numbers get too shallow?

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

It feels so good when you're enjoying your comfy bed and sofa while the others are off camping in some deserted places like jalan petara? Gah, whatever you call it.
So i came down here (indonesia) last night, it wasn't a good flight, i felt nauseous again and felt like vomitting, yuck, gross. But better still i came out alive.
I like gabbing to grase in indonesian language. I find the confusion smacked on my singaporean friends' amusing, lol. Yesterday's history class was amusing and i felt enlightened.
I've got nothing to blog about. There are good and bad things here in indonesia, i wish time could speed up cos i cannot wait to get promoted to sec3, i don't know why but i love the rush.

Don't you?

Monday, March 26, 2007

Slamming the door shut seemed like the best way to vent out my anger.
Or perhaps blasting my cellphone just to drain down distractions from outside.
But i can't do these anymore.
I need a new way to find peace.
iTunes' prety screwed.
My ipod's faulty.
I had to make my own way back again to wheelock just to get it fixed.
I had no mood to do anything.
I'm pretty blank right now.
I can't be bothered about you,
But still, i'm concerned.
I'm struggling just to know myself, what i really want.
Honestly, i do not know much of myself.
So it's pointless saying everything about you knowing me.
I might seemed as if i'm oblivious about everything and about everyone.
But i'm a sharp person, really.
I take things too personally sometimes,
I always put myself to fault.
Worse still,
Regretting when i am nowhere at fault.
But i have to say,
Friendship isn't about just having fun or feeling elated being together.
Nor is it about a party having too many common topics to talk.
It never worked out with me.
I talk to many extended mails sometimes,
Without any commen interest,
But i feel much more comfortable if i'd ever meet them then talking to sick people.
I can't stand you being peverse.
It's nothing gotta do with me being religious.
Friendship is about earnesty.
I'm sure no one haa yet to ever realise.
Or maybe i'm overjudging you.
Prove me then.
In every prayer i would say;
' Speed things- fast'
Cos time is not a desperate thing for me.
Time was not my medicine.
It will never be, cos i'm the kind who likes jumping into scenes,
And reviewing them eventually,
Just so i've not been missed them.
Be it being in the worse class next year, i don't care.
It could have been His blessing to me.
I'm surendering everything i'm holding onto now.
My posts aren't always relevant.
It could be the most random thing you've known.
From boredom, to lameness, to happiness and onto pain.
I could go on and on, just talking to you about these things.
I don't go shit talking behind anybody's back.
Just so you know, this is a private blog.
And i must say that i have the fullest authority to say whatever i want to say.
To blog out what i feel.
Cos it's what had been keeping my mouth shut,
Instead of shovelling it straight to your face.
( I bet you haven't read this far)
I'm not done yet.
I miss my mom somehow.
And i can't believe the feeling gets stronger when time's acutally getting closer.
I'm gonna fly over and meet her tmr.
I feel like pouring out everything that no one had understood.
They always ask;
' Are you okay? '
And they always say;
' Things are gonna be fine.'
Hey, thanks for the concern.
But as much as i want to,
I can't seem to put myself in a happy mood these days.

Hence, everyone should know that i'm feeling less happy then i am feeling sad.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

{edited}

I'm socially dead, thanks to vicki tan wei kee, cos if i don't end up in the happy ending that i'd always dreamt of, then i'm gonna ruin her's, i don't care.
And also thanks to katherine ma and zhang clarissa for all the sabotaging and 'support'. Now everybody knows who i like, even Wanting and harvey, ewww. I'm not a secret anymore. Katherine's a pervert, kept taking shots of him in every angle she could take.
I never realised that this world could be such a small world. Harvey knows who is eyecandy and at that moment i was gabbing crap non-stop, shouting all the way til the far end corner of expo could hear me.
I've got a new trademark now, which apparently is my voice. And everyone (even strangers) had to calm me down. And there was this lady, with extreme attitude problem, who tried to shush me down by giving me a stern look. Oh please, i was just elated.
I was high during service, i kept laughing, singing, shouting and screaming. And strangely, i gave everybody hugs even those that i do not know. Haha, how affectionate.

Perhaps it was yesterday's vodka.Woots, my guiltiest guilty pleasure.

Or maybe it was something else.

Qy said that i'm bonier now. She thought i had eating disorder cos i kept vommiting, haha!
Expo's otah auntie had a different definition of my eating habit :

me; erm, can i have 3 otahs?
auntie; or okay, that would be $1.20
me; erm i think i'll round it up to 4 otahs.
auntie; oh, okay, sure. $1.60 please.

* 5 minutes later *

me; hello auntie, i want 5 more otahs.
auntie; huh? 5 more? i though you just bought just now?
me; yeah, i ate finish alrdy.
auntie; so fast?

Yeah, that fast, i practically gobbled down the whole thing, despite of it being spicy. Sure enough it burnt my tounge and so i dashed to some drink stall to have pink guava. But quickening steps never worked, cos i tripped and almost fell on my butt. Oww.

*during service*
vicki: please la, that sec 4 guy is SOO much better than your eyecandy. Tsk.
me; whatever, my eyecandy's cuter than your whoever and whatever-you-name-it.
vicki; whatever. mine got pacs okay!!!
me; so?! mine got fats okay!
vicki; HAHAHA! fats.
me; okay what, fats are more huggable.
vicki; *points to current crush* see? see? see? He's tan, tall, muscular and handsome!!!
me; urgh, please. Mine's cute, fat, short and white okay! big deal.
clarissa; harh?! Omg carol, your eyecandy is fattt la...

HAHA, i like fat guys.
I find fat guys appealing, maybe it's just an extreme fetish, lol!

Saturday, March 24, 2007

It's kinda hard to believe.
I don't know if my faith is worth.
It's a blank feeling.
Going in a way, without directions.
I don't know if i'd ever made it.
I've displeased You too much,
In too many ways.

I need a fresh, new foundation.
I think it's just about to fall.
I'd be still on rock,
Compared to a burning fire.
I'm not the enthusiast anymore.
Due to certain issues.
I've never felt like i was at home.
Your definition doesn't suit the whole situation.
I find it incompatible.
It's easy to picture, but kinda hard to paint it out.

I've lost the feeling,
And the word 'breakaway' disarms me everytime.
Everyone's so caught up with daily routines.
I'm sick and tired, to be called when needed,
And to be pushed when unwanted.
I never wanted the attention,
Nor have i seeked it.
Cos i knew, all along,
I could never have it.
But this is way too much.
I don't know where my faith could take me.
Each time i resolute to do it in my way,
Some things just choked up in between.
They won't be pushed aside anymore.
If i could, i would speed things up.
And i'd just hope, things would go the way i've always wanted it to be.
And the respect i've always given,
Would return the same way to me.

It's not a complicated nor a demanding request i've asked.
I just want respect,
The one that i've gave you,
But never in return.




My contacts got stuck in my eyeballs that it refused to come out, no matter how hard i tried to take it out. I even tried poking it, that it would come out somehow.
Thanks to mr bean, my contacts got dried that it couldn't come out, and then i had to spend one whole night just to take them out. Yes, one whole night. Which means that i hadn't had enough sleep since i slept at 6am til 12pm. What's worse was that my eyes is now red and swollen and i'm predicting that i won't have to go to school for the next two days, haha.

vera; if you want to prevent dust and dirt from having contact with your eyes, then you're gonna have to wear sunglasses, wherever you go, wherever you are, cos that's what my sis did, not so long ago.

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Y E S T E R D A Y
My school had chinese opera for assembly? Tsk. Chun zhi kept grumbling to herself, cos she couldn't stand the noise and everything. I'm sure the cheenah boy loved the performance. I pitied chun zhi and so i lend her my joy luck and she said:
'' gosh, how to read one? i read upteen pages but still couldn't get the story line.''

AHAHAHAHAHA!

And as for me... I slept through the whole assembly period and i woke up just straight after it ended and i was like ' huh? so fast?', lol. Mr yee came after me again, for the sec2 camp thingy, i was pissed. And so i pushed all the blame to mom, saying that she'll clerify things out with mrs goh somehow.
Anyway, went out to town with yohan, vera, marcus and raymond. Watched mr bean hols, funny movie, but ending sucked real bad.
And since me and vera were in our school uniforms, we tried everyways to hide our trademarks, by wearing jacket, overlaying shirts and everything, just to get inside the arcade. We made it afterall. DDR is pretty addictive. Frequenting arcade is one major problem.
I can't wait to go back indonesia next week!

Friday, March 23, 2007

Hello, okay i'm so desperate, to blog around this our in school. Yes, i'm down for guides and it suck like big time. I see no importance of cca point *rolls eyes* But today's guides was slack, thanks to the grace of the Lord, lol.
Mr yee was pissed with me cos i couldn't turn up for sec2 camp. I've got my own reasons, and my mom's dreading to make a phone call to mrs goh. Tsk, i'm gonna miss out the 'fun', which obviously i think i'm just in luck to skip that.
I hate school, teacher gabs crap infront of my face. I need tuition, i'd die for tuition, i need a nice, kind and patient teacher to explain things to me slowly.

Girls are pretty contradictory :

*last year*
me; is he cute? is he cute? is he cute? *squeezes vicki's hand*
clarissa; okay la, but i find him a bit 'beng'
vicki; oh, mhmmm.
me; ...

*a few days back, on a telephone conversation*
vicki; OMG, i saw your eyecandy!
me; *uninterested* Oh.
vicki; he's cute.
me; *shocked* really?
vicki; yes, he completely changed his dressing, no more polos, all formal kind.
me; okay, i so regret not going for g12 conference.
vicki; hahahah. awww, too bad.

* last sunday's service-phone conversation *
vicki, clarissa and kati: HELLO CAROLINE!!!
me; *pulls cellphone away from ear* erm, ya what?
kat; we saw your eyecandy in tiong.
me; like i care, i like somebody else alrdy.
vicki; don't bluff lo you! you told me the other time that you still like him!
me; i don't for real.
clarissa; anyway, he became cute alrdy.
me; pls la, he's always cute, anyhow-i like somebody else.
kat; he's with a girl.
me; omg, what?!?!?!
clarissa; i thought you don't like him?
me; *keeps quite*
vicki; see, i told you, i told you! she still like him.
All 3; okay, we gtg now, bye bye, see you later on service!
me; -.-'''

Okay, i wish ______ wears back his gay pink/purple polo tee to service and never ever appear in anyone's face except mine, haha! In that case, i'll be able to shoo one competitor away, which is vicki, who apparently sets fetish on him.

But nahhhh, not anymore, i think. hahahahhaha!

( she's gay by the way, well, turns out to be :/ )

Thursday, March 22, 2007

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

First and foremost...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARTIN AND MARCUS!!!!!

Had a brief conversation with martin today. Yes, today's he's birthday, if he was in asia. But he's official birthday is actually tmr since he's in SF now. Awww man, i missed him already D:
Went to clark quay after school with vera, yohan and marcus ie. Had lunch at manhattan's fish market. Yum. Wasn't really exciting and we actually wanted to have some fun 'flying' opposite riverside point but it's better if we could do it at night so as to see the night lights. So it was postponed to saturday and marcus is gonna treat us soul garden in celebration of his birthday, haha!
Okay, i'm so bored now and i've been thinking and pondering on what i should do next after blogging. Somehow, i contemplated. Don't even think about studying cause i've mugged much last night. But anyhow, i shall do more revision even it's the last thing i'd ever want to do, cos mid year is actually on the 4th of april, yes, less than 2 weeks of revision cause of bloody sec2 camp. I'm so not looking forward to it and how i'd wish i'll vomit in that morning and so i won't have to turn up at all :)
School's getting gay and we lower sec had to share our break time with out seniors. That's ultimate. Cos mr poon define them as 'nice' and 'kind' (take note i used inverted commas) to take good care of us.
Theoretically, what chun zhi and i defined was that we had more competitors now. Competitors of...? Competitors for food.
HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
Okay, that was a joke. Sorry about that, but hey, it's such an animation to think about it this way.

You've got the charm
You simply disarm me everytime :)

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Today was so-so and english oral just ruined my life completely. I volunteered to do a try out in class with mrs goh and she pointed out all the mistake that i've done and made sure i wouldn't make the same old ones later on with mrs cheong. Tsk, sometimes, horrible and scary things could be benificial to us.
She said that i was an animated person of all the girls in class, haha!!! Am i really?
Well, i shall take that as a compliment. Sigh, it's hard to get praises from teachers these days, esp when you're not from primary school anymore. But anyhow, all teachers are fine with me, with ms wong as an exception. All she could do in biology class was to drag drag drag, complain complain complain and brag brag brag. Yuck, the horror. She's the best-est staller i've ever known. (she proved to me that i was never the best, at least)
I kinda argued with mrs cheong on a conversation just now. Uh-oh, big mistake. i can't believe she remembered me, pratcially because of all the english oral i've taken, i'm always under her, so yeah. I think i show no progress of improvement. My sassy and try-to-be-the-oh-so-clever mother of mine dared suggesting me to pull off an australian accent, which i could if i would. But i wouldn't cos one straight look into the eyeballs of mrs cheong's, everything goes numb and i choked up many words.
Like ''physically'', i pronounced it as ''phi-si-c-AAA-lly''. I'm so screwed.
I managed to take a sinful glance on the score sheet. Wasn't bad though, maybe she was just generous with her marks, or maybe my face looked that pathetic.

I love geography lessons. Sad, kar yee doesn't like mr roy tan anymore, haha. (she find excuses, not reason, LOL). And mr roy tan was being the funny old man back then. He was talking about plantation and onto chips and onto cottonseed.

Okay, let me get this straight.
mr roy tan; okay, what are a few examples of plantation?
student A; palm oil.
mr tan; okay, what is it used for?
student A; potato chips.
mr tan; ....and soap.
student B; then vegetable oil how?
mr tan; ah, that is also for potato chips, there's also another one called cotton seed and it's actually bad for males.
everyone; why??!!
samuel; redeuces sperm.
everyone; HHAHAHAHHA!!!!!
mr tan; erm, actually what samuel said is quite true, but most chips use palm oil, or vegtable oil.
germain; what brand? what brand?
zikry; CALBEE!!!!
mr tan; no la, what i know is lays or ruffles.
ming loon; WALAOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! omg, i eat everyday leh!!1
whole class; HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

lays + ruffles = (contain) cottonseed = reduces sperm.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!

okay, lame post, seriously.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Tough day.
Couldn't sleep at night,
Heck, i had no idea why.
Perhaps there was something that was on my mind.
But that's not the point.
Though it was a huge deal.
Caught up with vicki pretty much.
Missed th0se days when we were together.
Gossiped and chatted in class.
Mrs ang was pretty annoyed.
I hope she teaches us chemistry.
Cause ms liang's lessons are goddamn boring.
Felt nauseous this morning.
Got everybody worried.
Chun zhi kept tugging me during assembly,
Making sure that i was alive.
Lucinda must have thought i was weird,
Cos i wasn't the good o'l high.
Vommited in class,
But nothing came out.
Good thing i skipped breakfast.
Someone suggested i was a one night stand.
And vicki insisted that i was pregnant.
Perhaps i really am Oo
But felt better after munching session on mentos.
Lied to ms ng it was strepsils.
Phewed and munched again.
Glucose is always faithful to me,
Cos i felt thrillion times better back then.
Maybe i need to see a doctor,
To really confirm if i'm pregnant.
LOL.
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I was just kidding,
I just had a weak digestion, that's all.
Mind you.
I had tummy ache, gastric flu and kept vommiting,
All in the same day.
Yucks, perhaps i have bulimia.
Can you think of any other?
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Kadang deg-degan.
Kadang melamun.
Kadang senyum sendiri.
Apakah ini cinta?
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I don't know why,
I couldn't stop smiling,
When i think of you.

Those are not translates, mind you.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

It's a killer when you always have wake up early in the morning, tyrna get yourself steady in front of the mirror, only to find out that you've got a bloody swollen face. ARGHH! This is beyond insane.
I had no intentions of going guides, nuh-uh.
Anyway, headed my way down to town to get vera's nano fixed and so i toured around that place and i somehwhat regretted not insisting my mom to bring my mac along here to singapore, oh well. We walked all the way from wheelock to plaza sing, yes, imagine the distance. But it was worthwhile, at least it had conviced me that my lost diamond stud was alrdy gone, so no point crying over it.
I found out that i had huge cravings for almost everything. And it's not just about food. Vera was kinda pissed off that i kept delaying her to go starhub to get her cellphone fixed, i kept her busy by making her a company to eat and shop with. I think period's coming, cos it normally happens, times like these.

I don't know what to say, blogging isn't my kinda thing anymore, i think. Friendster's so monotonous and i wanted something more. Livejournal was the last thing i ever wanted. Perhaps i'm moving on to myspace, cos its like a blog+profile kinda thing, but i won't tell you guys the link unless you ask me personally. Like on msn or whatever. Kooodas.

(Though i'll be expecting that no souls would even ask or cared.)

Friday, March 16, 2007

Okay, i'm so cocked up cos of my cocked up swollen face. And thanks to that, sentosa trip was cancelled AND i had to go around town looking like some cowshitdungasshole.

Not funny.

For whoever sees me back then, and snapped a picture, you're gonna get hell from me no matter what, i don't care.

Yossie was appalled to see me in this state, and yohan went 'whoa', while nice and kind vera said 'okay what..'.
Okay, that's so displeasing. I need a miracle pill, pretty please. Thank you very much if you had any. Email me and i'll give you a million kisses.
Tuition wasn't even productive, i screwed up on maths, i seriously need a real tuition teacher, for real. I'm gonna kill ms ang the next time i see her. Urgh, it pisses me off to whatever she tries to teach in class, cos it was what felt like she was gabbing all the way.
Anyhow... Watched Blood and Chocolate, which was totally unexpected cos i didn't intend to watch movie.
Ending was bullshit,yucks, don't watch it.I saw this sushi place where you can eat 26slices of salmon sashimi for like half price of what they have in sakae. I'm gonna go there anytime soon. All sashimi are the same, really. And i'm getting my ass there as soon as possible cos craving gives the shit out of me.
Had caramel masschiato (is that how you spell it?) and had tuition which was a waste of time cos yossie kept giving me wrong steps, which leads me to getting the wrong method and yohan was scolding her back then, it was such a funny sight when you put a sister and brother and see them fight like there's no tmr, hahha LOL!
It's so interesting to have a brother. I've always wanted to have one, maybe i'll call mom to adopt one :D
Okay, that was bullshit. Good news, i'm gonna get baptised! But it's not gonna be any time soon cos mom wants to be there, but truth is, i wouldn't know when would she come down here. Urgh, crapshit, let's just forget about it, and do it secretly.

Haha, lol, i was just kidding.

I want to watch freedom writers, any poppers who would want to butt in with me?

Thursday, March 15, 2007

dentist: *points to auntie* she's your guardian right?
me; right.
dent; okay, is it possible to get me through your mom?
me; erm, why?
dent; because i need to talk to her about the risk.
me; huh? risk? what risks?
dent; you know, if this surgery fails, you're gonna loose your sense or get blind....
me; WHAT??!!!
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*on the phone*
dent; *gabs*
mom; *shrieks* okay, dr soh didn't tell us about it.
dent; but it's only a one percent chance and *blablablablabla*
me; *praying real hard*
dent; okay, i'll do my best. *passes phone to me*
me; yah?
mom; must be brave okay? must pray okay? and make sure you come out alive!!!!
me; -.-'' tsk, so sarcastic.
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dent; are you okay?
me; *keeps quite*
assistant; carol, are you okay?
me; even if i said no, what are you gonna do about it? continue right?
dent; good point.
assistant; *laughs*
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vera; *munching ice cream and chips*
me; omg, i feel like i'm on diet.
vera; *continues surfing the net*
me; *felt like shoving the whole damn bloody thing down her throat*
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vera; *pokes my 'pufferballs'*
me; what?!!!!
vera; nothing, just wanna disturb you.
me; !#%$^%&*()^^%)&%$!!!!!!!!!!!
(pufferball=swollen cheeks)
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me; omg, i don't care, i'm gonna eat whatever they have in this world. Just because of this godamn thing, doesn't mean i cant eat okay. Urghh, i got craving for sushi and kfc.
vera; oh.
me; eh, later go ikea and have hotdog okay?
vera; huh? you can eat meh?
me; i don't chew, i practically swallow whatever goes into my mouth.
vera; LOL, i think tmr you can go sentosa lo.

END OF ENCOUNTER, BYE!

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

I'm so sick of holidays, i think i hate it when i keep myself towards doing nothing at all. Boredom kills me, seriously. And the worst feeling was that you get ditched too many times, cos too many people are just too concerned about doing a lot of catching up. Waste of time. People don't appreciate it on long bus rides, they're too self-centered i must say.

And so.. my holiday was nothing but pampering myself and being obedient enough to go regular appoinment with the dentist. Tomorrow's gonna be the slackest day ever. I'm still considering if i should pick up that phone line or maybe pick up a pen. I haven't been revising. Plus, i'm too lazy to hang out, i'd rather curl up in couch with bags of chips and gorge myself up on both chips and tevee. I'm making myself sound like an oompah loompah, oh well, can't be bothered to keep on else's track and do shopping. I'm far off better alone.

And i pray that weekends would come, cos i'm always busy on weekends. I hate weekdays, its killing me that today's only wednesday. Think about it, tmr's gonna be tevee day, and sentosa the next. Saturday's gonna be shopping day. I want to spend off all my vouchers.

Let's all go people watching-the best way to kill time.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

I've decided to put my old self behind, and i'm still waiting for that new one to appear, pretty soon. Alvin and ronghui wants me to get baptised as soon as possible. I wanted to, but would mom even approve?
And i've heard marcus wee is getting baptised by the end of this month. Hurh.

*pushes him aside*
*cuts his line*

I want to get baptised earlier than him, hahahahhaha! Yeah, this is how bad i want to get baptised.
And i'm waiting for benedictine and jia xin's apporval too. I think all of us would end up in post encounter again, anyhow.

I'm such a lame ass. I shouldn't have gone to the previous post encounter, waste of my time.

Okay, my baptism form is getting dry after the encounter camp. I've got a few mission to do.
I'm going to prove to alvin that i take encounter srsly, haha.

Ronghuiiiiii!!!!!! Must baptise me okay?!?!








I'm spastic, who likes to take spastic photos.

Monday, March 12, 2007

I lost my diamond stud...

DDDDDDD:

Okay, fine. Bless that man whoever finds it on the road, he must be suffering from poverty. I must say i'm the happy-go-lucky kind, cos i wasn't really pouring my heart out on it.
Deuteronomy8:1-8
Marcus, you seriously need to get a new phone. N70's keypad is bloody small that i had to squint and kept getting errors each time i dialled my mom's number, even in the most crucial moment. And you guys should love my rocking mother, cos she kept laughing at me when i told her about the most devastating news that any mom could hear.

me; erm, mom....*puts on a very low/sad voice, for real* i lost my diamond stud on my way to ps.
mom; huh? i cant hear you.. *static noises*
me; *repeated what i've said*
mom; ourhhh, hahahahhahahahaha! nevermind lo, i think next time you need to wear the plastic one.
me; omg, serious? you're not angry or anything?
mom; if being angry could find the stud back, then i'll raise my voice a lil louder, but no point right?
me; errr, yeah...

Haha! So yeah, i wasn't really disappointed though i've let her down too many times. I kept losing my things recently. First my cellphone, then my contacts then onto diamond stud. Crapshit.
And i ate carbs to lift up the weight, my khaki kept me entertained all the time, thank you very much. They never fail to keep me laughing even in sad times. I wonder why it never happened to me with others...
Ate, joked, crapped and laughed with yohan, yossie, vera and marcus ie. Some holy laughter striked me along the way at pastamania and ichiban sushi.

*yossie and marcus were talking about ghosts and being possesed*
me; *listens attentively*
*conversation eventually stopped*
me; *glanced at yohan, laughs hysterically*
everyone; *stares*
yossie; omg, she's possesed.
me; *laughs even harder, almost fell out of the chair*
marcus; siao, laugh for what sia..
me; *maxxxxxxxx*

You know, i'm not the kind who believes in getting possesed, its just that something funny just hit me. Marcus's pratical joke is the lamest yet the funniest ever. Not literally sick like most of you would predict, just some logic and common sense jokes.
Burned all the carbs as we all danced to the beat:D Love dancing, lol! And we were dead beat that after, went home eventually.
Yossie's going for camp this thurdays to saturday, which means that we wouldn't be able to chill at sentosa. Crap, so there'll only be me, yohan, vera and marcus. I miss martin anyhow, he said he'll be back by june? July? I don't know.
I'm seriously broke right now, and mom's cutting down my monthly pocket money/allowance. Yucks.
April's coming, i hate aprils. Cause there's so many things going on like birthdays. Don't ever remind me if you ever fall on march/april. Plus, i need new tricks for my april fools combo.
The good thing is... April fools' coming, and i will/shall scare the hell out of a person. And i manage to, every year, and everytime. So you guys better stay out of my sight.

The other sad thing is that kelly clarkson's drake is coming out on april too, avril lavigne is alrdy out. Waiting for ciara, patiently.
Okay, call 1800-112-donate-to-caroline-roberts like right NOW!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

HELLO!!!! I"M BACK FROM CAMP!!! And i've got so many things to blog about. Hmm, let's start with friday.
Friday was so-so, i actually thought that thurdays was the last day of school, on the other note, i thought i wouldn't need to attend school, but just for the maths trail, lol.
Maths trail was fun, it could have been better if it was called maths trail The amazing maths trail race, lol. I did a bloody interview. Thought it was some survey but they actually took video of it. Omg, i pray it wouldn't be played publicly in school, if not i shall kiss goodbye to my social life. Dominuque was being the lame ass back then, haha, anyhow.
After which i headed for the encounter camp. Yes, straight after maths trail. Vicki was being the gooed-eyed on guys. She kept saying that she doen't like this group cause there ain't any shuai ge, LOL.
Perhaps the guys were giving her their backside, so she couldn't see clearly.
LOL, i realised that male saints are pretty handsome. So conclusion is, if you wanna date a handsome man, go SAJC.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!

There's this guy called kennedey who is pretty cute. Erm, what i meant was his action, i don't know about the looks (tick-tock-tick-tock), but nevermind. Alvin was being funny throughout. And it's hard and difficult to laugh at his lame jokes ALL BY YOURSELF! I laughed pretty loudly, like really, and everyone in the room kept stared at me, after which giving each other exchange stares. Urgh, bloody hell. I think it was the same case as the mr low thingy, whereby i will get the joke first, and laugh hysterically, and eventually stop laughing when others got it.

I gotta say, i have a good sense of humour, yes?

And i met my long-lost primary 4 friend during the encounter. Man, we're from the same church and what i recalled was that she was all about negative then, but she's alright now, praise God.
So far, encounter was okay. I'm blessed to have rong hui and i get to meet other new friends. Now i've learnt how to step out of comfort zone and reach out to many other people.
Ya think it's good? I think its bad, way bad.

Cause i got the feeling that i'm having more and more love by other people outside my s.family. Uh-oh, but anyhow, they'd never appreciated after all.
Qingyu wasn't even there for me during the encounter for some batam trip. What trip? Massage trip -.-'''

THANK YOU RONG HUI FOR EVERYTHING!! STEPHIE, ZHI YING, BENEDICTINE, PEI SHAN, EE LING, CHRISTINE, JIA XIN AND JING YU!!!!!!!
I fell thrice, i counted. Erm, not fell as in 'fall down', it was meant to be like getting slain? I dunno, but yeah. I think ony christians knows right? Any doubts, answers will be answered right at expo, hall 9, FCBC :D

And what is a trip without pictures? - lifeless.





Ahahaha!!!

Oops, i moved.

I call it-i was suffering from C-O-N-S-T-I-P-A-T-I-O-N. Shit is hard from ass.






I screwed my smile, squinted cos the sun was glaring.

Moved again.


Stephie, jia xin, rong hui, me!

Benedictine! :D



My girls, :D

Marcus wee is cute with his ah-go-go glasses. (He looks like a fly/mosquito that tries to bug us, no offence >:D)

Thursday, March 08, 2007

I felt like dying, yet i'm still living.
I'd always thought that life's unfair,
But somehow, i managed to take chances and opportunities in life.
A little dedication and a simple apology goes a long way.
So right now, i'm gonna start a new, for a new term.
But first thing's first...

I'm sorry God, if i'd ever let you down, and if i'd ever bargained.
I'm sorry mom, for not being obedient.
I'm sorry chun zhi, for ignoring your difficulties when you always heard much of mine.
I'm sorry lucinda, for hating you very much in sec one (beginning of the year).
I'm sorry kar yee, for spreading out the mr roy tan thingy.
I'm sorry katherine, for calling you lame for most of the time.
I'm sorry clarissa, if at any point of time i'd offended you.
I'm sorry ai jia, for bugging you always about raymond.
I'm sorry raymond, for the otherwise.
I'm sorry melvin, for having fun sabotaging you.
I'm sorry vicki, for calling you selfish or even a fishball face.
I'm sorry vera, for killing your social life, always.
I'm sorry johan, if i'd every treated you unkindly and if i'd threw harsh words down your face.
I'm sorry marcus wee, for being jealous of your long eyelashes, i dunno how they grew that long.
I'm sorry marcus ang, for disliking you at some point of time, thinking that you were somewhat unreasonable.
I'm sorry qingyu, for ignoring what had been said.
I'm sorry yohan, for any nasty comments.
And i'm sorry to everyone, if i had ever harmed you.
If you've seen your name, then please accept my apology, i hope you do the same. Oh God, please forgive me.

And of course, thank you melvin, for the maths tuition that we did earlier on. Algebra wasn't my kinda thing, and thank you for helping me overcome it all. I would also wanna thank you for sharing the same tuition teacher as me. All in all, thank you for saving my maths results, i'll help you with science kay?

I'd just received my ppr.
I wished bus rides could be long,
So i could unwind and listen to the melody i've played in my mind.
But walking back home seemed to be the most difficult part.
The thought of my ppr swept me beneath.
Broke down, having nothing to say.
At that point of time i wished i could fit in grase's luggage,
And being thrown down the belt, 'take me to indonesia'.
To find my mom, and cry to her, holding tight to what i've done with my results.
But she's gone for now, away to honkong.
I pray for journey mercy and hopefully she'll get business right.
I missed her, and how i wanted to pour out everything about my results and progress in school.
I'd just wanna say,
Thank you, Almighty One.
You know i had never achieved much of these, ever.
You are mighty to save, and i thank you for it.
For all the A1s that i've achieved, i've never gone this far.
It may be low for some people, but to me it was unpredictable.
Having five combo hit, i'd reckoned it was by faith.
I managed to get rid of my sixes, moving on to fives.
Screw english, i'll keep going for a two.
I'll continue working hard cause i know You'll stand before me, shielding my way.
To love me and to protect me.
The high road's getting bumpy, thank you for guiding me, protecting me and making me feel so peacful and constant.
Thank you, for letting me understand what the term 'love' is.
I know i'm lacking of it from the family, but i've found out that when one descends, the other heightens.
That's what i've felt about people around me.
Promise-somehow i can't work out what they mean.
A promise's a promise.
So what's a promising love?
I shall forget about the promise we've made.
But thank you marcus ang, for even caring about me.
And for even wanting to show some fartherly love to me.
So far, i've never felt the way you promised earlier on.
Maybe you might forget, but i should still stay appreciative.
Thank you, even if i'd never felt it before.

I felt so bad, not having support from my family for my big day.
Encounter.
Thank you johan, for being there too, even if you'd planned it all along.
I don't mind not being sent to the venue,
I can find my own way from school, and back home.
God will lead the way.

Thank you everyone in the family, for loving me even a little bit,
I'm appreciative enough to accept it.
But something's lacking,
And i'm not complaining.
Still, i'd like to add life, even in the most difficult situations.

Perhaps family love is descending, while my other focus heightens.
Or maybe it was the other way round, to other people.
I never intend to walk throught that door, with a simple goodbye.
And hello to other faces.
But someday i would.
If only i could carry on any further.

I'm still having doubts, and many times i contemplate about this love we're having.
You kept saying, God will come through this madness.
But it's hard to believe, and i'm still struggling.
I've seen many of them feeling so left out.
Cause when one plus one equals two, nothing to them feels unbeatable.
I felt sorry for that person,
But i couldn't manage to give you a hug, to make up for it.
I hated myself for not being able to do it.
Because i know, right now, you actually needed me the most.
I've been there, done it all, repeatedly.
And no one had ever asked me if i was alright.
Perhaps this was the culmination of such behaviour of mine.
I'm lacking love, and i'm not giving it.
I hate myself somehow, for not letting the initiative to care for you even further.
I'm sorry katherine, i really am.
I'll struggle along my way,
But promises in me could never be made or guranteed.

We just need patience, a lot of patience.

I couldn fit in a two page essay on this, but somehow i digress.
I don't want to piss others off any further.
All i wanted, was to close my eyes and feel appreciative of what i've done,
What i've achieved,
Or even what i've been lacking.
Thank you for making me feel so sad and emo at this point of time,
Thank you for making me feel like i'm the biggest accomplishment ever lived.
Thank you, for whatever you had promised to give, but did not.
I've always learnt how to take and accept, even in the most difficult times.

Consequences can be made or changed,
But i'm not bagaining anymore.

Goodbye.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

I've realised that many people read my blog. Life's monotonous without fun and excitement right? So i'm the one here who's gonna make people laugh, and keep coming back for more,lol.

First off, PE was alright, at least we wouldn't have to run like madcows again. I can't believe i made it 4th of the girls, for the running thingo. I can run fast too:D Like those rooster who goes peck peck peck, lol. And my standing broad jump was a spectacular one, i manage to get 171, when i used to achieve not more than 165.
Not the exact point, point is, MR ROY TAN TIAN KIAT ALRDY KNOWS THAT KAR YEE LOVES HIM. By whom, shall we blame?

ME : *points to ms ng*
*curse to ms ng*
*stares at ms ng*
*pushes blame to ms ng*

Ahahaha! Well it started off when me, estelle, lucinda and kar yee had to stay back to take picts of different venues in school, we even told ms ng (our art teacher) about kar yee's newest crush. Which is mr roy tan. Surprisingly, she believed what we've told her cos we reckoned that she thought it was only a lame joke. But after all, when we headed towards the library, it was such a coincidence that mr roy tan was there, marking worksheets. Kar yee, obviously, ran away from the room, leaving all of us in fists of laughter. Haha, and ms ng actually told him about it, and he went like ''huh?''

HAHAHHAHAHAH! And oh, kar yee eventually denied that she still loves him, said that she moved on and fell in love with my dear sernior. LOLOLOLOLOL! I couldn't say i wouldn't dare to type down his name, as much as i want to. But i'de better play at the safe side cos i know he might be reading this now, so yeah.

I'm just gonna say : kar yee loves mr roy tan AND_______! LOL.

Movie with marcus ie, vera and yohan today. And oh i saw this acjc couple, who really disgust me. I'm not stint to see much of these, and couples's chemistry and everything are so conventional. I digress to but i woild like to say i'de want to marry a caucasian boyfriend. Cos i want handsome and pretty babies. Rock on, chee-axx.
Anyway, vera and yohan were off to a different planet when we were on our way to somerset, so i kinda caught up with marcus ie a lot. There was this couple, again, holding hands and hugging each other, in the middle of the road( like literally), and he gushed somehow :/ I swear i saw that. And this was the hint of the culmination that he obviously had a girlfriend, lol. And he's trying to deny he's buying a gift for his girlfriend, when the lie was, he was just getting something fo his god-sis. Yeah, right.
Dreamgirls was so-so. You can't change an okay movie to a great movie, i don't understand why it made it big this time, same as the pursuit of happyness. Story line was bullshit, but singing and musical was soulful and powerful. I love jennifer hudson, i swear, she'd even been able to kick beyonce off her spot, take charge of the next soulful rnb. I shall catch up with american idol now.
Martin's gonna do his master in china, i laughed the moment i heard that. Marcus too, is doing his college at china, haha! He said he's afraid that he would be able to speak like those chinese. Like real fluently. Yohan's getting cute at this topic:

marcus; walao, i scared ar, when i come back to indo or s'pore i'll talk like those chinese *pulls off chinese accent*
yohan; haha, but where you want to go?
marcus; i dunno, maybe shanghai.
yoha; oh, shanghai. shanghai is machine gun.
vera; machine gun? why machine gun? *looks at me with quizzical look*
me; eh, i not sure. maybe shanghai's settlement and government specialises in machine guns?
vera; oh.
yohan; no la, they talk like machine gun.
all 3; huh?
yohan; ya what, they talk very fast mah. Then biejing uses the tounge to curl, like really really curl.
all 3; HAHAHAHAH! we thought shanghai specialises in machine gun! *lol*

Listen by beyonce is nice, pretty soulful. I wanna buy the soundtrack. For those people out there, who takes instruments, performance, lyrics and singing as a passion, then this movie, i recommend.
But please, don't blame me on the stroy line. LOL.
(But it was okay, anyhow)

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

( As promised to low kar yee, i shall blog the ever-oh-so-wonderful things about her not-a-secret anymore crush, that is, her adorable mr roy tan)

And as i predicted, mr roy tan must have known distinctively that the whole class was talking about him, yelling that kar yee loves him, haha!
Chemistry was a huge bummer, i burned my thumb. Okay, not practically burn it, just scald, and it hurts real bad. Screw the test tube, if it wasn't for it, i'll be writing my words perfectly fine. Nevermind.
I saw Zheng hao again today. But too bad, bus 33 was so crowded, i only managed to have a slight glance. And when i secretly hoped that he would sit on an available seat beside me, this acs gay guy just scooted his way for it. Crapshit, if i ever neet him in anchorage, he'd better run away.
Oh, new blog skin by the way, i got so bored of the other one. Ai jia and kar yee had been complaining about chatterbox so yeah, there's your cbox (:

And not to mention what i just promised, today's english lesson was fun, mrs goh makes lessons fun. Ms ang is downright lame, soft, petite (in a sense, easy to bully by the guys), and worse of all, i couldn't understand what she'd just taught today. I need maths tuition, or at least atp, i don't bloody care. I'm gonna ask my mom to come to school this thursday for the parents'meeting session, then complain about why i was not chosen to be on atp, and demand for my seat to be changed. This can go on forever- me bragging about my class, class environment, sec3s and sec4s in my block, and nevertheless, maths atp.
So back to where i was distracted, kar yee was chosen to be an oral modal in class today, so here goes.

mrs goh; okay! Take one, ready? camera and action!
me; LOL.
kar yee; *walks into class, giggling and laughing all the way*
mrs goh; kar yee, wait stop. how can you walk into the examination room laughing like that?! the teacher might think that you're crazy!
kar yee; *laughs harder*
mrs goh; eh, the teacher must be the thinking that there's something on her/his face, if not then why are you laughing?
germain: *shouts* AIYAH, IF IT WAS MR ROY TAN, SHE FAIL LIAO LA!
whole class: woooot, ahah, hahhahahahahaha.
kar yee; *blushes and looks away* (i think)

So that's about it. And english lesson is so fun, it's so unusual to not hear boring stuff of verbs, adj and nouns from mrs hannah tan, since she's our english teacher last year. Today's english lesson, is all about doodling haha! I drew a scientist, melvin too. Germain drew some guy with extremely huge boobs, taking a shower, while kar yee drew some uni-sex guy taking a shower. We all had a good laugh.
Sometimes, i'm just too far out of the people around me, i don't know if i'de ever belong. At some point of time, you'll find yourself feeling a different extend of feelings from others, and other people tried to comprehend what was it all about. No biggy, take today's music lesson for example, with mr low.

mr low; *hands on guitar* so class, harmony is notes stacked up together. *plays music from laptop*
*slow, soulful music and singing plays*
mr low; *keeps gabbing about melody and harmony*
mr low; *tunes in with guitar* Does this melody that i'm playing suits the music?
whole class; *answers half yes, half no*
mr low; then what about this one? *plays another melody form guitar*
whole class; *same answer-half yes, half no*
mr low; its a yes, it plays the same tune. what about this one? *plays hippy melody from guitar*
whole class; *keeps quite, gave a shot as a yes*
mr low; NOOOOO! how can this be the same??!!! *plays the exact same tune, sings jingle bell.
me; HAHAHAHHAHAHA! JINGLE BELL?! what the hell, so funny, HAHAHAHHAHA!
whole class: *keeps quite, stares unpolitely* * they must have not realised it was jungle bell*
mr low; yes, its jingle bell, *sings and plays to jungle bell*
whole class; ohhhh! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!
me; its not funny anymore la ://

See? Somethimes, i just don't belong. Tsk, nevermind, moving on.
Grase and i decided to join this music thingo, or whatever. I'm gonna pay a solid 75bucks for it. It'd better be worth it cos i think courses at believersmusic are hard core expensive. Yamaha's a nuisence. They spent like two lesson of your 500bucks course, stringing and unstringing the bloody guitar, instead of going through the chords and teaching how to tune the guiatar,lol.

Kay, i shall end here, before you guys go *la-la-la* after reading this hell-long post.

Monday, March 05, 2007

Today wasn't so bad after all, God is good.

First of all, mother tounge oral was cancelled. You had no idea how i happy i was back then in class, shouting and screaming like some kiddo scoring the highest mark for a spelling bee. At first i'de actually considered, early in the morning, before school, to let my aunt sign some paper, in order to be excused from school, haha.

I never knew i could be absent from school for no reason. It happened, most of the time, and i'de get away, most of the time. LOL. Sometimes, enticing the bad things can make a huge deal here.
School was okay, ipw was fun. My group decided to do on some chemical car thingo where your portable car, that does not use the function of remote or batteries, goes zooom zooom zoooooom with chemicals like magnesium strip, dipped onto acid.
And we couldn't find the perfect group name, so i suggested a name that we'de heard from in church, since we're all from the same church. Wasn't a second too late that katherine blurted out a MIGHTY TO DRIVE group.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!! I LAUGHED SO HARD.

Whatever about chemicals, i cannot comprehend and couldn't be bothered on such stuff, for at least now. Probably cause of maths. Yeah, maths is to be blamed. Esp when ms ang is around, urgh, curse curse curse. It's so irritating when NIE had to send an intern (whatever she is qualified as) to our school. Ms ang's voice is like so soft and i couldn't hear her, even when i'm seated on the 3rd row, bloody coweyezzz. I was unable to digest everything that's written on the board, and now i realised that i need maths tuition NOW!!!

I WANT TO GO FOR MATHS ATP, AND I DON'T BLOODY CARE IF ANYONE THINKS I'M CRAZY, I CARE TOO MUCH FOR MY MATHS RESULTS. I WANT/NEED/DEMAND FOR MRS GOHHHHHH, noooooooooooo!!!!!!
I'de kill for maths atp, seriously. And when i asked mrs goh about it, her reply, was the faintest smile i'de ever seen.

!#%$^%&^*(+?>!!

Okay, life's unfair. I should bang my head on the wall repeatedly til i get smart enough to answer qn number 31 in my textbook. And perhaps i'll show mrs goh those bumps and bruises, in order to convince her that i should deserve to go atp. Yucks, clarissa's under the special care of mrs goh, i'm not :/ I'm a jealous shitttarse right now. Melvin, you're in atp, you should teach me during class, i don't care.
Let's flunk next term's maths exams/tests and hopefully, i'll be selected to atp :D

Today's MY lucky day. I met zheng hao on the bus!!!!!!! HOHOHO! And if you're an old http://guess-addict.blogspot.com OR http://villadawest.blogspot.com OR http://dacherie.livejournal.com reader, then you should know who zheng hao is. Yes, none other than my eyebag guy, which i used to fight for with vicki, lol. Anyway, there's a difference between eyebag, and eyecandy, so please.

Went to tiong for sakae sushi with vicki. I don't know what the hell happened to the others but oh well. Had tons of sushi, yummo. And i crave for salmon so much, but hadn't had enough blings to afford a plate of salmon sashimi, so i ordered tons of salmon sushi. I practically ate all the salmon, leaving the riceball out, so i'de played with it and stuffed them in between plates so that i won't get caught red-handed for wastage of food.

Tell me i'm cheeky:D

Bought hotel paper, they don't have ''feelin' you'' available, crapshit. Seriously, i would have still been a big fan of michelle branch, supporting her this very moment IF she hadn't even joing the wreckers, which seriously is screwed. She's far off better alone than to jessica.

Kay, maths maths maths and more maths, *bangs head*.

First 15 minutes:

Sunday, March 04, 2007

You want to be good,
So you try to be good,
You prove to everyone that you're good,
But seriously, you're just not that good enough
To laugh, cry sing or dance.
You can never be
.
It'll be better if we embraced a smile
Tyrna act like strangers
But we distinctively know each other
But somehow i contemplated
Ponder over realistic things
It's so near, yet so far
It's the acquaitance that kills
.
.
All that precious time
But i just feel so in-between
Someday, i'll just keep pretending, that you'll stay
Dreaming of a different ending
I can't keep something that i never had
.
.
I'll just sing a melody to myself, breathe every little piece of me.
And all the pain that i suffered, and all the ache that i endured, will all be gone, just like an expired breath.


( I don't know how to start my post so maybe i'll just go straight to the point)

Had our first briefing on the encounter camp, which is this coming friday. Johan's a lonely shit, he's got no one but himself, haha. Seriously, i don't know why i'de ever turn up the camp too. Ronghui's nice, but the other participants were not. Esp this sec 3 girl whom i seriously forgotten her name. She's pretty hostile, not the kind of person i'll get along well.

me; *offers hand* oh hello, i'm caroline
hostile kia; *blushes, turns her head down, walks away*
me; wtf.
ronghui; eh, don't like that la, intro yourself la.
me; *offers hand effortlessly this time*
hostile kia; *shakes hands, didn't reply me with her name*

So that's the reason why i couldn't get her name. And i realised that she's the oldest in the group (yet acts as the youngest), and there's another sec1 and p6 girl coming. I hope they won't bring me down, or much less disappoint me like the first time. Jeez, whatever.

Just as i expected, none of ther girls turned up. Either this or either that, i don't give a damn about it anymore. Church was nevertheless, fun. I had a hard time going around the hall cos it's so dark and cold.
I swear i bumped onto somebody while trying to find my way. And that was when i realised that i lack vitamin A, omg, i'm having night-blindness, haha. But the worse thing of course, i bumped onto marcus.

!#$^%?!^&%@

He was doing ushering, haha, damn gay on the suit. But nevermind, back to topic. I miss cell group, why must it always fall on saturdays, and that's like the only day when i had time to go shopping, and cellgroup starts at 5, seriously, i hadn't had much time. So forget about it, screwed.

Oh yeah, here are the picturs as promised, so sorry for the delay. Vera: Don't fault me if i had inserted any embarassing or illegal stuff on the net, it's my private blog so you can't do anything about it, haha.

Don't say i didn't warn you.

Carolineroberts
I'm genuinely exquisite and an extrovert
I have my moody days, everybody does, right?

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