Wednesday, February 28, 2007

I'm so hoooked up on online shopping, i don't want to go to stores to get what i want anymore since i'm too busy to do that.
And lucinda's hooked too,lol.
But online shopping can a frustruation sometimes. Like i've seen a couple of people receiving complaints and all and there was this once when they did a trade but the item got bounced back to the sender repeatedly. Tsk, i don't do shipping, that's why:/
And i've gotten myslef a tote, top and a jumpsuit perhaps for kimmy or maybe yaya, or maybe to myself, lol.
And besides that, i think dealers are quite amusing sometimes.

mail conver-
me; hey, i'm interested in the bronze verion necklace, do you do meetups? are prices still nego?
dealer; yeah, i do meetups only at simie mrt staion and bugis/city hall mrt stations. I'll give you a $1 off if we could meet at simie.
me; hmm, that's a lil too far for me cos i live arnd redhill. Okay, i think i'll stick to cityhall.
dealer; okay sure, but i'll still give you a $1 off discount anyway.

What the hell? Only a freaking dollar? Urgh, nevermind. Okay, tmr's katherine's celebration and i'm afraid i couldn't turn up:/


My kodak camera's cover literally came off out of no reason, crapshit. I guess i need a new one.
No, not the cover, i meant the camera. And dad(lol) wouldn't even lend me for a few days, much less touch it. He's got the fuji? Or was it the kodak? I don't know, but it's really really cool. I can't wait for him to quickly come over to singapore from indo cos i want to spit at him everytime we take neoprints.
The DNA (once again) was a catastrophe. It keeps falling down each second or the minute a strong wind blew. But good thing vicki's mom got to do the job and it eventually stabilized.
I won't be expecting an A cos we haven't got photographs and ms wong kept scolding and she even stalled us from going home. Teacher's are the best staller ever, i must say.
Tmr's katherine's birthday and i had no idea of what to give her. Has anyone bought the present alrdy? Mind if i like, pay a few sum of the share cos i don't think i'll be free to even get one.
Plus, i've been seriously busy these few weeks, tests and exams coming up and there's only one more to go. Yep, chemistry. I hope i score all my ones and As cos i've done pretty badly for biology. A pathetic B4 and i can't believe that i scored higher for chinese.
The first time in my secondary school life, i've managed to achieve a B3 for cheenah, HAHAHAHA! Yeah, my mandarin is that pathetic.
And today the whole class had this training during pe, some high intensity whatever shit. Please, i cant even do an intensity running and they expect me of doing training to a much higer level. I did all my rounds at 1.55minute each but was unable to continue any further. Mr Koh was shocked to see my apperance and everyone told me that i looked seriously pale. Kar yee said that my lips looked as if it's being applied with some sweet pink gloss, haha.
So after running the whole class lied flat on the floor of the parade square and i swear, i slept for a minute or two. Didn't wanna wake up cos i find parade squares are so comfortable, lol. And mr koh got us to do crunches after that and my tummy couldn't take it anymore, i vomitted but nothing came out.

It was then i relaised that i was lactose intolerance, thanks for the info mr koh.

KAR YEE LOVES MR ROY TAN AND SHE COULD EVEN MEMORISE HIS TELEPHONE NUMBER THAT WAS PRINTED ON SOME CONSENT FORM BUT IT WASN'T LONG AFTER GERMAIN TOLD US THAT IT WAS ACTUALLY THE SCHOOL'S TELLY NO. HAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

me; omg, you memorised his number? From where?
kar yee; there! the consent form for the sungei buloh trip.
melvin; serious? *grabs paper* kay, whats the number.
kar yee; 6+++++++
me; OMGGGGG, you seriously are insane. mr roy tan crazy.
germain; wait, what's the number again?
kar yee; *repeats*
germain; walao, gong la you, its the general office number, you think mr roy tan that stupid to type down his number issit?

me + melvin; HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH!

(in case you hadn't known, i don't have the school's contact number in mind.)

And yesterday's geography lesson..

me; *turns to kar yee* eh shit, we're getting back our result scripts.
kar yee; huh? serious?
melvin; ya, we are. oh ya, btw right mr roy tan has a girlfriend and they're getting married.
kar yee; WTH, whoooo???!!! omg, i so hate her la. no matter what she could never be as pretty as me.
me; hahaha, your head la you!
melvin; eh, what if its ms lai(ex-math teacher)?
kar yee, Turh! i don't friend her.
me; but they're really close and they speak in chinese together. but both are attached so no chance and no wonder he's eng sucks, no wonder i cant understand his lessons.
kar yee; mr roy tan is admirable okay! uhh, if only he can wait for me for another 6 years. *smacks dreamy looking face*
germain; *heards everything*
germain; *shouts* MR ROY TAN!!!!
mr tan; *turns* what?
germain; kar yee love.......*subsides* you.
kar yee; ehhh!!

It was a good thing that some guy interrupted the conversation between mr roy tan and germain, if not the four of us is gonna be in big trouble.
We could be accused for gossiping, spreading rumours, or even get killed by none other than low kar yee who thinks that mr roy tan is really that admirable, lol!

(by the way if you're wondering who is dad that i mentioned earlier, it's none other than the infamous isnu-pop who's very fond of calling me names such as squirttle or blastoise cos i may spit out saliva at anytime :D)

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Okay i flunked my english test and so you won't be seeing me in the express stream next year anymore. Bye bye triplesiencedoublemathshumanities and life, i'm gonna bang my head over and over again til i get clever again.
And besides that, DNA project was screwed, me and vicki did it like the very last minute and i'de reckon ms wong wouldn't even give us a pass. Decent looking might be, but you'll never know what a person is really like. Schools getting gayer and gayer, yucks. I missed those days where we used to spend our breaks on playing catching and hide-and-seek in the parade square.
I must say, primary school days, never ends.
And if i could pick the perfect timing that i could go back and undo what i've done, that'll most probably the year of 2005. Yeah, i'm gonna study as hard as i could and work the hell out of myself for psle, lol. Joke.
But that's not the point. I watched ellen and tyra banks show at vicki's house today, and that was when her mom gave me a red packet. (haha) And, i was too hooked up on tevee that i hadn't realised that i was pretty late so i rushed off to the bus stop.
I can't wait for streaming, seriously, i just wanna skip these revisions that i have and what i've been hanging on in my bloody classroom, i get pissed really easily these days, i don't know why:/
Anyway i seriously need to go now cos tmr's biology test and i gotta buck up on maths and english.

Monday, February 26, 2007

Okay, today was a long random day. Nothing special, really. 'Cept that the fact that i went to ikea and ate non stop with vicki, well not exactly non stop, but oh well.
DNA is screwed, hell screwed. And i just realised that all biology teachers are reatardos and idiosos. Yes, well for at least my school. I'm just unlucky to have ms chong last year, and tough luck that i had ms wong this year.
Okay, i'm considering about the medicine/surgery thing that i'm gonna do in life, cos i don't want to end up like some nutard,lol. But anyways, mom gave me a call and asked if i would want to join with Vera to Melbourne for further studies after Os. Uhm, a lil unsure though, cos melbourne to me is an uncertain place that i could fit in. And besides, i've been in Sydney for long enough so i guess i'de better be off there better, but mom doesn't approve it:/
Much less the States. Mom wants to send me all the way to england (most likely london). Okay, that's a lil too far off and i think i should be more realistic, that's what i told her. But ah well, i'de always thought she was a heartless core who dares sends her one and only daughter off to a far away land, LOL, joke *raises hands in surrender*.
It's gonna be 2+ more years(including this year), i can't wait any longer. But i predict it's gonna be a 50-50 kinda thing. But most likely you won't see me sticking arnd my butt here in singapore, lol.

Am i gonna miss anyone?

Hmmm, neh.
*flaps hands*

LOL, joke.

Barf if i cry.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

I skipped post encounter again, omg, this is bad. And here's the bad news too. I realised that marcusang and johan aren't going for encounter, which meant it's only me and L, but turns out that you're only allowed to go for the camp if you're below 17. Dang. That means L wouldn't be qualified to go and hence i'll be going alone. Omg, the thought of going camp alone-it's scary.
But here's the good thing, i wouldn't be exactly alone, i'll be under the good ol' care of Ronghui. And upon hearing that i was like WHAT???!!! Who the hell is ronghui and why do i have to go camping with some stranger that i don't bloody know? Pastors can be unreasonable sometimes, tsk.
But after meeting up with her, i realised she's nice. Petite, bubblyfun and of course, the quirky kind. I hope i get along well with her.
I think i know the reason why i'm put into this kinda situation whereby i'm going for a big encounter without my spiritual fam. Obviously i'm not telling you guys why, cos it's somewhat rather personal. And why the girls just couldn't get along and it seemed that there's always something wrong with them-i think i might know why. Well, all i can say is that God just wants it this way, so that i could concentrate on other stuff (like other people and studies), so that i won't be so slacked and achieve fantastic grades like never before.
Seng ai prayed for me today, her prayer did really hit me. Its not the grade that counts. Now i don't depend on studying anymore, but more to doing the examination by faith, lol. (But that doesn't mean that i won't study!)

A million pieces is a huge sucker. All the tenses are mixed up. Instead of past they used present, which is difficult to read and believe. So i bought the 5 people in heaven and it's a goddamn bloody good book, that i reccomend:D Oh, tuesdays with morrie is nice too:D

I need yohan(for tuition), srsly, like NOW.I can't seem to get the formulas right://
And i need Raymond's help toooooo!!!!!!!

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Today's absolutely not the day to go town. Esp when chingay's today. Everywhere's a mess.

I hate cramps. And today being the second day, i kept crouching and groaning in pain, which woke vera up. And i knew distinctively that i was unwell to even go for thinking day, so i missed it.
And if you think that i'm just finding an excuse to try skipping thinking day, then i'll have to tell you to go to hell. I'm not making excuses up this time, nuh-uh, i swear.
And the minute i woke up, i felt dizzy so i decided to lay down on my bed for a while longer. Wasn't long til i fell asleep and i finally woke up at 11.

-.-''

I want to watch dreamgirls and the pursuit of happyness. Yes, i did not spell it wrongly cos it's spelt that way in the movie.
Or isn't it?
I know the correct spelling is happiness.... Okay, back to the point. I had sushi today :D Chatted for hours with yohan, novita and vera at sakae. I still crave for sushi, no other but sushi. Anyways, i'll be off studying like some madcow and then watch late night movies with bags of potato chips with vera and her sis:D I'm a movie junkie but i never fancied drama series, i don't know why.
Esp chinese ones, well unless its really really good. I don't get what's the huge deal about prisonbreak cos all the while, they're just trying to figure the way out. I haven't seen the best chique fliques so far. Korean ones are okay, but it's always emo and sad, and one of the couple (either the girl or the guy) always dies the last minute when they're gng to live happily ever after. I hate that. Jap ones are cool.
Boa's out. Ciara's supposed to be out alrdy, but something's wrong with the shipping or whatever. I'm still waiting for kelly clarkson and avril, but it'll only be out in april.
*curses*
So i purchased the fabulous bowling soup in the end.
Kay, i'm gonna go off and study hard now for my home econs and geography and biology and chemistry since there's test on all of them next week. I'll be busy for now and i'm gonna chill later watching ugly betty.

Friday, February 23, 2007

Hello again, i'm just being random and so i'm gonna post a random post right now.

I find isnu an entertaining joke sometimes, lol. I caught up with him pretty much, and im envious that he's got a jazz and a drivers license. Roar.

-msn conver
me; eh, i just realised that i've got heat rash.
isnu; =.= heat rash?
me; yeah the red spots on your body but it'll go away eventually.
isnu; what if it's hot water?
me; neh, that one not rash, its scald. lol.
isnu; lollie, so you don't bathe in hot water.
me; i do, walao, you think i snow queen ar?
isnu; no, eskimo girl.
me; HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!!!!

me; eh, you doing business right?
isnu; yep, management and accounting.
me; oh, so you wanna be accountant next time?
isnu, no. BOSS, CEO, MANAGER.
me; of? school-for-the-idiots?lol.
isnu; erm, my companies?
me; yar, companies-for-idiosos. LOL.

Man, he's hard to catch. And oh i recalled this incident when me, vera, cindy and isnu were taking neoprints. And due to the uncomfortable awkwardness, i laughed and barfed out loud that i spitted everwhere. Yes, like literally.Unfortunatley, isnu was right infront of me and he didn't realised that til the camera had captured our picture. I call that a snapshot and vera and cindy were caught by the camera, laughing hysterically and showing that OMGface.
I shall post the neoprint one day. Haha.

I'm not finished yet...

And did you know how lazy i could get when it comes to myspace? I hate seeing one of those 'about me ' qns. It's not that i don't know what to write, it's just that i dont know where shall i start and how much do you want to know about me. LOL. My friends from saudi arabia kept laughing at me.

-msn conver
me; seriously, i hate seeing one of those 'about me' qns. Its just a killer.
lana; omg, yaaaaaaaaa.
saud; woot. nice one carol.

And renne thinks that i'm a 15 year old instead of 14. While lana and saud thought that i was 20+, but after seeing my pic, they declared that i was even below 13, with a good english accent. LOL! I was shy to talk to them at first, but i hadn't realised that they were actually nice people. And i won't hesitate to go over saudi arabia to meet lana and saud, lol.


I was thinking of getting an iphone, yeah the new one, since i've visited apple.com for the 87764870980 times.
School was uhm, okay. I guess. But anyhow, i was being the good girl around and i did turn up for guides. Unlike many others like vicki and clarissa, lol. Tmr's thinking day, and i'll be bunning up my bloody hair into two plaits, yuck. I need need need need to practise and revise for my set language and notations. Oh and plus algebra, i want to score pretty well this time round:D
Caught up with lim kar yee while queueing for food. I was embarassed that i couldn't figure out his surname. I kept thinking it was Ng, but turns out that it was Lim, jeez.
I'm gonna watch ugly betty tonight. The whole series i hope, then off to nip/tuck. Obviously, with the delay of my algebra and notation that i once mentioned. LOL.
Chee-axxx, i'm gonna at least study 3 hours a day. Serious, i'm crossing my heart.

For the thousand times, i missed hana kimi again. Urgh, and ellen too. I miss cudling my pillow and crouching at the sofa with bags of potato chips. Yeah well, that happened to me a pretty long time ago.
My ama caught vicki and clarissa and this guy at ikea, while they were supposed to be at school for guides, haha, caught them red-handed. You can never run a way forever.

Random post, random thoughts. I'm just kinda curious what will happen on sunday.

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Hello, just popping by 'fore i sleep.
I'm nervous about tmr, i wonder what tmr will be like. Omg, i'm having depression.

And i did have once, mind you. I just couldn't sleep at night and kept shivering like hell each night. Insomonia, yes it is. And what luck it was my psle year. But everything just dissolved after sec1, and i'm loving sec2 for the time being.
I wonder what i'll be and turn out like when streaming's final year, i'll be so stressed and cocked up, urghhhh. The thought of going to 3/1 just kills. I can't wait for mid year-seriously. I prefer big major exams compared to tests cos you could gain more marks.
And loose more marks. But if i really really did study hard for it, i wouldn't right? Besides, big tests are always easier to overtake, yes believe me.
that's why i kept thinking i'm failing cos everyone's scoring full marks throughout.

Oh, and did you know that i can seriously talk very fast, and confuse others? I realise i have the ability to talk fast esp for those tounge twisters.


I hate thursday, yeah well, i seriously do. And on top of that, i've got a pretty last minute notice that today was thinking day, which meant that we, guides had to dress on our full uniform for the whole entire day. WHICH i had to tie my hair in two plaits, which was fugly disgustinggg.
I swear it was the last thing i could ask for.
So i cabbed to school with vickitan and she got to do my belt/scarf and stuff, which i hadn't put effort in doing it myself. And i'm so ashamed seeing everyone's uniform all sewn with badges, mine's still empty, it's all blue-ish and everything. Tough luck, i sewn the wrong badge at the wrong side of my uniform-.-''

I
Just
Couldn't
Care

Algebra's getting on me. The two maths lessons that i had was a torture yet i find joy, lol. Melvin and i kept challenging each other on who could do sums faster. Undoublty, i won:D And while mrs goh called out each and every person for answers, we'll be sitting down at the corner of the classroom to discuss and exchange answers. My name's being called out, thank god he saved me, phew.
And when it was english lesson(which was after maths), our brains were burning hot. Melvin said that his head could just explode and burst and shatter to many million pieces anytime, lol. Like literally BOOM.LOL. It's just so confusing, with all the alphabets switched and stuff. That, i can never be good at. Take left and right for example, sometimes i just couldn't differentiate between them, esp when it's said out in mandarin.
zuo=left?
you=right?
Please tell me that i'm right. And i'm also not the kind who could remember names well. I kept calling vicki as vera and then otherwise.
Must be due to cramming, nvm.
I need my hillsongs to be uploaded, but i'm just too lazy to do it. Oh and did you know that at indo, they sell planetshakers and hillsongs cds? Like all of 'em form the past years. I wanted to get all of them but i hadn't had enough cash, so yeah, i've only got a couple.
Interested? Tag me or something.

Anyway, i'm going to work hard no matter what, i'de kill to go to the science stream. So here's the deal, i'm gonna work hard for streaming so that i could get to tripsciece class, then do well for Os, then As(if i'm still arnd s'pore), then migrate to australia to study medicine and surgery,well hopefully.

If not, i'll just join the hillsong band anyhow. Besides, they're at sydney anyway.

Edited: Anyways, i popped by to clarissa's blog and i saw somthing funny that made me laugh hysterically at my seat, which i evntually fall out of my chair. My butt hurts right now.

Quoted from clarissa:
katherine made this up. who else.
OCCUPATIONS FOR THE PONfamily;
marcus ang; hotdog seller
lena ang; love potion seller
vicki; marshmallow seller
caroline; rob people
marcus wee; florist
johan; rabbit seller
clarissa; tution teacher
katherine; pet ant trainer

HAHAHAHAHA!!! CAN I BE ANY MORE BETTER THAN A ROBBER??!! LOL. Just because my dad's name is robert, it's not funny to me now.
But vicki being the marshmallow seller, more of FISHBALL seller.
(cos her face looks like fishball, lol)
And marcus being the florist; HAHAHHAHA,OMFFFG.
And johan the rabbit seller; i don't get it, oh, he has bug tooth. HAHAHAHA!
and katherine the pet ant trainer; like who the hell trains ants?
LOLOLOLOLOLO DAMN FUNNY!!!! and what's up with PONfamily?

Sometimes i wonder, what did God do to all these marvelous, creative and funny people. I hardly see any of 'em these days. It's hard for someone to really really make me laugh. Oh well.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Bus rides are always boring, esp when your ipod is missing, cos your mom takes it away-and which is your only portable source of music, which is the only jamming thingo that you have right now, which is the only excuse to get a new one.
Damn, i'm too lazy to upload mine)):
Anyway, school was retarded, a gone case. I don't feel the right way i should, everything to me feels abnormal now, pretty surprising but yeah. Maybe cos everyone's uncomfortable with me cos i pop by at anytime, gah, whatever.
PE was killer, do you know how much i hated mr james koh when he asked us to like literally run around the school compound? Jeez. Skipped guides again cos i need to bank in some of mom's cheque, which she refuses to do it by herself. It was surprising that it didn't take a long time and so me and vera headed down to old vivo for movie. Ghostrider is a bloody scary show, with all the scary effects and stuff.
But it's not as good and scary as shutter though. Uhm, i don't know.

And since we've got there just in time for the last ticket to be sold out, we ran around the place like some cowshitdungasshole that got everybody irritated but we don't really care. We weren't with our bags so we pushed and shoved at each and everyone that we see. And after getting the tickets, the craving for pastamania had appeared out of nowhere and we ran again JUST to get pastamania. Afterwhich we were late for movie and so we ran again and again back to the cinema and we were huffing and puffing along the way.
I couldn't stop fanning furiously at myself with the free calendar they gave, ha!

And since the effort was paid off, i gained stamina and mr james koh bloody well better get me a pass for 2.4. Turh!

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Hey, yeah i missed the fam bbq, crapshit.

Anyway, yaya and leo popped by with their lil daughter jayla (i remembered her name, would you belive it?). They'll be expecting me to buy a ticket to sydney anytime soon, to very much less catch up with them. But of course if mom approves.
I got bloody 100bucks, muahahahahaha.

Okay, so here's the sad thing, i almost spent all my cny cash on a bloody ipod. But the effort of begging mom to get me a new one instead totally paid off.

eStore.
Mom; i don't get it, why do you need a new one if you alrdy had the old one.
Me; mom, the old one sucked, it's screwed.
Mom; haiyoh, i dont understand, they all have the same functions right?
me; neh, this one can watch videoooo.
mom; like you never watch before.
me; that's why i'm addicted, so get me one!
mom; *turns to salesguy* tsk, teens these days.
salesguy; hehehehehehe.

Perhaps that was my lucky day? So i'm still hanging on to the other currency and i wouldn't hesitate to change them all to s'pore notes once i get there.
I'm suspecting ms wong's gonna give the class a practical test, which i hadn't study, even a least bit. But i'll try to. And oh, the maths surprise test is giving me nightmares, it haunts me everytime.

And did you know that i got my mom and aunties and cousins to do my damn bloody art? HAHAHAHA, they all said my drawing and art was good, but upon seeing me colouring and sketching effortlessly, they decided to give it a try and i made sure that they're doing the right thing in order to achieve an A.
They better do, if not my overall marks are screwed, urgh, anyhow. And yes, they'll be seeing me chasing after each and everyone of them with a broom once i stepped to syd.
I'm going back home to s'pore today, omgggg, i don't want to as much as i hated it.


Thanks jeremy, thanks. If you hadn't known, you're making your tracks a lil far off. You don't even know me, and you're wasting your time, reading my blog and making stupid funny comments about me. I absolutely cannot tolerate such shit talking esp from you. it's nothing but sheer cowardeness cos you don't admit yourself and you're the one whose getting the wrong concept here. So why dont you come to me personally instead of hiding behind the grace of an old tagboard, which we couldnt identify your real identity. Besides, i have nothing to be ashamed about, everyone's on the look out for you, not me. Respect comes in a two way traffic, obviously you haven't heard or even learn much of it, others are laughing at you now fyi, not me.
Cos i have absolutely nothing to do with you. It's you who is the one having problems with me, but you make it seemed as if it's the other way round. If that's the problem, then i'm afraid you'll have to get over it.
So the next time you come back here and even before you hesitate to tag, be sure you think TWICE, if not others will be looking out for you.
Spoling a person's name isn't a very good idea, you're making yourself stupid and you're hopelessly beyond cure.

i call it, a person who seeks attention, even in the most extreme foolish way.


HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA, i'm just laughing it off to all the comments. cos srsly, no one had taken much of these srsly,it wasn all meant to be an opinion, none said that it was true. it is Jer3my, who does, jeez, such sensitive people. nvm, nothing to be pissed about, it doesnt concern me anyway, no biggy. Everyone invites you opened arm, cos we thingk that you're some entertaining person who pops by anytime. you must be God's personal joke.

I'm going back home tmr, gahhhhhh. Which means that i'm gonna have to miss the family bbq. Crapshit. I'M GONNA MISS MY COUSINS AUNTIES UNCLES AND NIECE. Man, it's gonna be a year or two til i'll be seeing them the next time, and the next 3 or 4 years til i'll be joining them. I can't wait to go sydney, i just couldn't. I can't seem to move arnd much in s'pore cos you're only legal to do that when you're 21, while in aussie, you just gotta be in a tender, wee age of 16.
Then paintball shooting at 18.
How exciting, it's so boring here, well life's boring. I want to break away and go to other places that i've never been.

Anyone wants to tag with me?

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Instead of mandarin oranges and shark fin, i had tom yum and beef salad for chinese new year. Yeah, Thai food for chinese new year. Pretty weird huh? We used to have chinese food without fail, every chinese new year, but i guess this year was an exceptional. A change that made our family bond closer somehow.
And at the dinning table, i kept playing with my little niece, she's hottie adorable i tell ya. it's sad thing i hadn't brought my camera along.
The food was instanly gone in a few minutes after it's served. My mom had 7 bros and sis, mind you. So you could imagine the number of cousins i have. Yeah, big family, big red packets. Speaking of which, i think most of my cousins resembled someone i knew and met before. William looks like the chinese jerk in my class, who managed to top the class without fail. Hanny looked like some girl which i can't recall her name. And arlo looked like, well, uhm.....nvm.
The old saying are always right, looks can be deceiving and you can never judge a book by its cover. Same goes to red packets, lol. Me and kim were counting our big money furiously and each packet was stuffed with stacks of notes. We kinda thought it could be a few couples of hundred thousand rupiah but turned out it was only ten:/ I coughed momentarily each time my uncles/aunties asked(always the busy bodies)how much i received.
Anyhow, some uncle of mine gave us one million r each. Smack that. I got many different notes, all from other countries. So you might guessed that my whole family actually migrated all the way from australia to the states.
I spent new year's eve mugging, yeah mugginggggg. While the others were playing majong, crap. Why can't there be 5 people playing at once? So yeah, i was bored to death.

All in all, i received 6million r, and 3 c.cards.And what about you?


Today was a blast, a three in one celebration. First off is chinese new year, the next was me and my aunt's house warming. I bet you hadn't known i just moved?
Anyways, reunion was good. I got to see arlo again, lol. Oh and my niece is bombastically cute. Uh hurh, Her name is anne? Annie? Jane? Jamie? Argh, i can't remeber, i'm bad at names.
Oh i just remembered, it's jayla...or was it kayla?
Nvm, shall ask kimmy.
I reaslise the good thing and the bad thing about reunions. The good, you get to catch up pretty much with one another. The bad, they kept bugging you, insisting you to tell the truth and they intrude your privacy. Take me as the victime for example. My whole family kept insiting that i do have a boyfriend when the truth is, i dont:/

Scenario: at the table, having dinner.
Aunt: Say carol, do you have a boyfriend?
Me: Erm, no?
Aunt: Awww, how adorable, don't you lie you fool!
Me; I'm not lying,,,
Aunt; You serious? o.o
Me: Yeah, and why would i lie?
Aunt; okay then, do you like anyone?
Me; No ma'am.
Aunt; then does anyone likes you?
Me; how would i know??!!
Aunt; well they could have at least said 'i like you'
Me; no.
9 i cant rmn any;/)

Me; *turns away, spotted uncle darting suspiciously at me*
Uncle; carol! y'have boyrfriend eit?
Me; *slaps hands on forehead* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Yep, that qns died eventually after i was being questioned by each and every one. Jeez, i never knew australians could be this bad. Perhaps worse than singaporeans, i don't know:/

I had abalone for cny, how bout you? It sucked pretty much, i hated it cos its bad. I just dont know how they cooked it. Yuck. I dread now to go back to simgapore. I dont wanna go backkkkkkk.
NEXT STOP; SYDNEY, AUSTRALIA!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah, you go to college, then graduate, thats the dream.

Friday, February 16, 2007

Hello, i'm at the sextard airport right now. Love the atmosphere here, where different people with different skin go bustling here and there. A lovely sight i would say.
School was alright. If it wasn't for the home econs practical test, i would have made myself absent. Pretty sinful ey?
I don't have much time yet. I'm hungry and desperate to go shopping. I can't wait to get my sexy ass at indo cos it's where i'll go crazy over stuffs. Yes, red packets baby.
And i think i'll receive lesser than last year. Since my last year's birthday was on the eve of chinese new year, i received double and the amount definetly hit onto thousands.
I was hoping if i could too, this year.
Anyways, i'm gng to go grab a bite and then coach shopping.
Byebye and have a happy chinese new year!

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Today was much less a waste of my day. I did pretty badly for maths i guess, i still can't believe katherine tan could overtake me. Gasp, shall work hard on algebra now.
Though i manage to get my ones, i still don't think it's good enough cos everyone seems to be higher than me. Its not the marks that counts, its the ranking that you've got.
Put that aside, i was pretty pissed with Jeremy for being some annoying trash. Scolded and warned him a thousand times to keep his mouth shut, but to no avail. He thinks that i'm some power crap who only knows how to give it a bigshot.
Please, it's not about me being the leader or what so ever in the group. I think i deserve the respect that they never gave me. Its as easy as that. You earn it from me, and you'll get it. Two way traffic, even an idiot could understand.
Vera messaged me saying that she couldn't catch the movie we've always wanted to watch. So i headed to tiong bahru, but changed my mind and decided to go habourfront instead. Pulled and dragged vicki along, til scars and bruises, yeah, imagine.
Met up with nicole and marcuswee and i can't believe that vicki changed her mind. Omfffg. Pretty pissed but i know i had no choice. Yeah, that's how my day went, wasting and disappointing.

How ironic yeah? Sometimes things are just contradictory.

But on the bright side, i've finally gotten kimmy her birthday pressie and momma's lippies.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

a million little pieces

First and foremost i would like to wish everyone a happy happy valentine's day.

In normal, simple standards of definition, valentine's day is a day where you express and show your love your loved ones/items/lover, what ever you call it.(Correct me if i'm wrong) But to my theory of state, valentine's day is the one and only day whereby i can get gifts with the exceptional of my birthday and cny.

LOL, i'm one happy kid who receives many gifts like choc, sweets ect. Oh and i received gifts that weren't meant to be mine, it's just a share. I don't know how i got it, it just landed on me. And did you know that i gave my prince charming, Jeremy chan two hugs in the day? Pretty chic huh? LOL.
And this morning wasn't a good day to start with. Esp when you've got a bus seat available beside Johan. I tell you, he's one dangerous guy when he's asleep/sleepy. Damn, he almost leaned on me and this acs guy but the whole bus ride was all about nudging him, complaining to him to straighten up. He groaned without a doubt, a pretty loud one that got ms williams shocked. Yucks, and as soon as my eyes got on another available seat, i quickly scooted my way and place my butt on it before anyone does.

I call it, a gay encounter.

I'de reckon everybody's all love blind and sick right now, and i'm a lonely arse who spends her afternoon with my girlfriend, vicki tan. We caught up pretty much. Though i intended to spend my noon with michelle, she came up to me all of a sudden, saying that she changed her mind. Lame, i know.
Bought a new book, haven't started reading yet though, but it seems pretty interesting, I shall recommend if it's good. If not, i'll bloddy hell sue the devil who got me tempted and insisted me to purchase that book.

Hmm, sound appalling huh? Neh.

My ipods screwed, will be insisting my mom to get me a video one. I hate nanos for some reason, just can't comprehend which.
I shall make my own way and click onto the web page and start typing GarageBand as quickly as possible. I'm dying of my outdated playist that screams my ipod. Urghhh.

English test tmr, fly the fish out. I don't give a darn to it since i couldn't put myself to it. Bye bye 3/1 and 3/2, i guess we were never meant to be.


The cookies vera baked yesterday. I bake nicer and more appealing ones(:

Candid!

At first she started with a small portion and then she turns to me and say: caroline! I bought this!

And yes, i went omfggg.


Barbie shopping, yes? LOL.


And that's how my day went(:

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Somehow, you'll feel like shit at one point of your life. Have you felt that way? Cos i do. People gives me shit all the time.
Mom's got her 7390 which i thought it was pretty. So i tried to convince her by trading her 7390 with me to n73. I though she could've reacted slow but she wasn't much of a muddlehead, yeah yeah, i'll still be sticking to n73, big deal.
School was a blast. And did you knowt hat Low Kar Yee is in love with my geography teacher which had the same surname as vicki? Uh hurh, Mr tan, yes he is. Which tan? You figure out yourself. She even told me she had extreme fetish on teachers, esp cute ones.
A few examples which had made it top 10 on her crush list was mr koh and mr goh. Omg, i was obviously appalled but sigh, kar yee's one strange person, i don't know why:/
LOL!
Vera and her whole big herd of friends are baking cookies(?) now. Man, i so do not want to sample, look pretty disgusting though. Well, from all of my experiences. I bake nice cookie if you hadn't known.
My html/css for my space is screwed, i don't know what the hell is wrong with it but ah well, shall get somebody to help me out. Those experienced one.
Anyone?
I'll be going over to cindy's for dinner. She's got a really cute cousin seriously.
Dixie chicks made it big on grammys. I don't like them in particular, songs are a bit weird. Hmmm, correct me if you have to. Maybe i'm wrong, lol.
I MISS KIMMMYYYYYYYY

Monday, February 12, 2007

Maths test was, uhm, okay. Geography was a sucker. Honestly i prefer major exams to class test/common test. It's harder for people to score but easier for me to overtake.

You get what i mean?

My grandpop's killing me now, i don't know why. He just came up to me and gabs in jap which i apparently cannot translate. Yucks, i need grandma's shoulder to cry on. He's a sucker sometimes.
I'll be expecting a rainbow any time soon. It's drizzling now while it's scorching outside. A perfect way to get sick.
My mind's kinda caught up with some stuff right now, i hate grandpop. I'll kill him if i have to.
Anyways, my craving for kfc is finally over, had it after school with the girls. This time, you're not gonna expect vicki,kat and sa from me.
Kar yee was hysterical, i couldn't stop laughing when i'm around her. Lucinda's alright, i just couldn't understand how she can stand such friends like me. I pity grase, her whole house at indo was completely flooded. Nah, probably a metre or so, thank God my mom's perfectly safe in the grace of the 16th floor. I'll be gng back to indo this cny, i'm pretty excited. Though i can't really say i'm looking forward to the red packets, i just missed my family. It's gonna be 3 more years til i'll be joining them at Australia,oh wonders of Sydney, i could hardly wait :D
And i just realised that i'm an aunt, ewww, made me sound so old. But my cousin just had her first baby. I'm pretty bad at names honestly, so i don't know what she's named.

But that's not the point, she better be cute.

Oh, and i just had my health screening today, well as expected. It's a good thing i showed up with shorts and shirt. I'de almost puked at the humanities room, excuse me. It was after break and i pretty much had a heavy meal, jeremy then approached me and demanded me to go to the humanities room for health check and i'de almost died. I was all alone but the nurses treated me pretty nicely, how ironic. But they were discussing about this girl from my school who just had an audio test and discovered that she had a blood clot in her ear. Upon hearing them i gave a loud groan. My tummy just sucked at any point of time i hear such stuff. I'de always wanted to be a doctor but i just had a thought that i wouldn't be able to do it, i hate blood seriously. And it kills me every month.

Gah, i'm crapping all the way. My mind's pretty screwed up seriously. My body must be disfunctioning, i need a break. This is seriously a random post.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

I just can't seem to understand why the human body always disfunction at the wrong place and at the wrong time, jeez. I set up my alarm clock to 7am and i'de reckoned i pressed the stop button instead of the snooze button so yeah, i was late for post encounter and i was a muddlehead at 9.
I didn't intend to go for post encounter after all, since i've hadn't done my encounter so i don't see the importance of my presence. Met up with yiwei at 11 to get my necklace, pretty well done. It must have taken a pretty long time to do it since it's so tideous.
I met nicky at in the bus again. He's nothing special to me now, for at least my first puppy love but nah, i don't like him anymore. (if you're reading this)
I don't understand girls sometimes. Nah, most of the times. Well maybe not all girls, maybe i shall specify and magnify it to the girls that i normally hang out with. Elizabeth thinks that they're weirdos, i won't say i agree but...nevermind. I don't even get what's going wrong, cos i can't seem to see what the hell is wrong. Maybe it wsa me or maybe it was just a bad day, but i don't think we should treat each other this way. It's unfair to the other party.
What more can i say? It's pointless without being listened but heard.

See? There's a difference.

And if it's something gotta do with guy problems, just shoot it. I absolutely am not the kinda person who could tolerate much of these. Dating is not in me, why the rush, and that's my point. I may seem i may not know anything, but i do. I am totally aware on what's going on between all of you. Backstabbing is a common thing, i've experienced much, but i think you're overreacting or perhaps overjudging. The people i feel comfortable with may not appeal to you, so what's the whole point of being upset at? I don't do cliques fyi, so i get to know more kinds of people then you do. I dare not say i'm a social butterfly cos i like spending time alone and hence i'm somewhere in between that and a loner. I don't care much of what you had said, i take it as you don't know me. If it's me you're insulting, then let the others go. It's so unfair to them. Your point of view, or what you proclaim as 'instincts', are untrue, and i cannot tolerate any longer. Chew me personally if you have to, i hate shit talkers.

Chatted all the way with elizabeth, she's nice:D I got to do her nails. Though they're screwed but it still look pretty. It's nice stepping out of comfort zone and meet new people. It may seem and feel weird at first but it's nice and happy that you've met new people who are no different nor exceptional from you.

Anyways, skipped lunch again. My tummy was growling for food and i was pretty much starved to death. So i went to ikea to get dirty hotdogs but after seeing what was on the queue, i'de almost fainted. Now i know how to prove to everybody that singapore's population density is high. Take orchard road for example. So i toured around anchorpoint, in hopes of finding yummy food. I walked one whole round and so i decided to have gummies, sourpowers and sweets. Yes, for lunch.
Munched hungrily all the way home and this few japanese kiddos kept staring at me. I thought they got attracted by the colourful colours of those gummies i had, yeah neah. Conclusion is: never skip meals(:

Geography and maths test tmr, bye bye.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

Blogger's so screwed

Anyway, if it every gobbles up and chokes down my template then yeah, i'll start the old cursing again.
Went over to marcus ang's and his folks' house, had steamboat:D Muahaha, it was good, pretty good.
Well i met up earlier with katherine, we kept changing the venue and so we were late and hadn't had enough time to go shopping. Crapshit, well at least i've got my fox top.
I saw this pretty pretty cool top at topshop but sizes 12 and 14 were the only one left. Jeez, sizes these days, pretty hard to find. So i scanned through the whole section for a 8, but to no avail. Tsk, shall get it next time.
I hate kemabagan, that's like the last place i'll ever go there. The cannal near the mrt was hideous. It seriously stinks and i couldn't stop puking and vomiting that after, well almost. Smells like sea water and sewage, what a perfect combination. Weird.
I find that when vicki and i hit the grill, we make an incredible feat:D Uh hurh, did you know that we were the first to start our dinner and the last to finish it? We ate like 3 hours non-stop, haha. Yeah you'de better believe me. Johan thinks that we treat him like a geniue pig, kept giving him those 'unwanted' food. But we weren't after all. We were just requesting if he could try our new 'experiments'.
Vicki and i practically dipped the whole food onto a bowl of soy sauce. Pretty salty and unhealthy, but yummy. NKF is to be blamed. I don't care, i'll push the blame to them, LOL.







I know you want my apple.

Lucinda's influenced by me. She's going 'gaga' over online shopping now. Get paypal:D
Now she knows whose the pro-online shopper when she sees all the websites and links that i gave her to look through and find whatever she wants:D

Friday, February 09, 2007

Things i'll never say

Hello.
Skipped school today, which meant that i skipped health screening too(: LOL, but i'm sure that i'll have to make up with one of those unfriendly nurses.
I was so restless today despite turning in early last night. Grandpop was appalled when he found out that vera and i woke up at noon. Ha, some hardworking arse like him.
Everyone's all hooked up on myspace,i'm too lazy to update mine. Not to mention my iLike/itunes. I don't do friendster these days, bores me out real easily. I wanna meet new people out there:D Like how i met Torsten from germany, hoho.
I find it hard to rack my brain each time i see those 'about me' questions. There's just so many things to say about, ah wells.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

I'm addicted to online shopping, omg i have to stop.

Sigh, i had no other choice. My week's all screwed up cos of the upcoming tests and extra lessons and not to mention tuition, that made my weekends so dead. Worse of all, i hadn't been doing much shopping and it's weird cos saturdays and every other day are always a free time for me. Biology courses are just a killer. I couldn't even digest what the graduates had said. All in all, it benefits us and i kept protesting myself to go.

Party at someone's house(i'm unsure of whose), on saturday. Which meant that it'll cut off my free shopping time. I'm so depressed. Besides, i wouldn't be able to go for church service anymore in these few weeks cos of the upcoming tests and all. It's so annoying. The competition has alrdy started and it's getting pretty tensed. I don't want to fail again this time, like what i've did last year. Though results and perfomance in school had brought me down despite the countless effort, i would die to improve further. It only takes one step to continue further, but it only takes one person to hold back the whole class. That's the thing i hate about e2/1 and i very much couldn't wait for promotion day. Do ya know how annoying my classmate can get? I could always shout, or curse, but that's not exactly who i am. No way am i living the 'one for all, all for one' spirit, cos that's just a stupid saying and it'll make no progress if you continue on.
I don't want to be left behind, though i may not take the lead. I just want to be the better lot(:

I'll work hard, i swear i will.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Home and early. Intended to continue being the nerdy nerd but i decided to call it off. Anyway, school was gay. I'm gonna hate tmr cos it's a test day. Yeah, history test& chinese test. All from sec1s.
Shittttt, i can't find my shou ce anywhere.

Just
Kill
Me

Gonna have to flunk it anyway. I don't give a damn to cheena, as much as i want to learn and continue on with my jap. Sunflower seeds are best for lunch. It makes you full for a minute and you'll end up vomitting the next. It's a good thing that there was no health screening today. Singaporean nurses are scary and unfriendly. Mrs goh even had to warn me that they could bite you sometimes. God knows i hadn't brought back my healthbooklet and now, i had to tell the old grandma's story to all the nurses. Shit it.

I'm just gonna end my conversation and explanation short and simple with a simple 'shut up'.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Guess what? Cherry gave momma a call. Yes, my bloody 9 year old sister had finally gave a call. Heard that she was hospitalised right after the trip to korea. Haha, i laughed so hard.
And my whole extended family will be coming down to celebrate chinese new year from Australia :D Omgsotongballs, i just wish that i could skip sec2, sec3 and better still sec4, so that i could migrate to australia as soon as possible. I'm counting the days and i so cannot wait to get myself there and be nerdy always. Life's good there, ya know what i mean...
We've received our science common test today. Yeah, that was fast. We had it like yesterday and got back our scripts today. World's best record goes to miss liang. But anyway, i did pretty good :D I'm proud for at least now. I've scored like half a mark higher than chun zhi, and it sure did made me go crazy. Haha, for the 1st time i've beaten her.
The big fat cheenah guy in my class is my next competitor.
Sheesh, it's kinda tough when you've got 3/1 or 3/2 smacked right on your forehead. You'll go around looking like stupid zombies saying ' 3one 3one 3one 3one-3two 3two 3two.' LOL. Imagine our herd saying that, scary mary.
I don't understand why students have to suffer and do much on art. I just don't get it. Seriously, if it was for exercising your left brain or whatsoever, i'de rather you throw me sums and questions on maths and it'll
probably will get my brain in fire, thank you. Seriously, what's the whole point? And we all had to draw like 10 shoes? That's plain idiosyncrasy.








My prince charming, jeremy (:

10shoeschinesetesthistorytest so bye!

Monday, February 05, 2007

I had a nice, warm dinner with the folks. A happy happy family dinner with balasushi to fill us up. <3 jap food. And what about you?

As usual, i pondered on my bed this morning if i should get it going to have another fun time in school, or just make a deep cut and cough profusely and cry to our grannies.
Nevertheless, i skipped another grace of an mc, and went to school just to prove everyone that i'm godly afterall.

Anyway, i just got my maths test and i'm seriously bloddy stressed up. It's nothing to be complacent about. Everyone's moving forward to achieve all their ones that they should deserve, whereas i'm still stuck here with all of my pathetic twos. It's so annoying. Oh and this big fat cheena guy in my class is so competitive. Everyone is. The competition is getting tensed and i'm not too sure if i could hold on. I'm breaking down now, to have the thought and to see the splurge of our analysis. It just sucks. Vicki's alrdy catching up and clarissa won me for maths.

YOU SHOULD OBVIOUSLY KNOW THAT I'VE DONE BADLY. AND AN A2 IS DEFINITELY TAKING ME NOWHERE.

GOD, I DEMAND FOR A1SSSSSSSS!!!!!! YOU HEAR ME??!!! ONES ONES ONES ONES ONES ONES ONES!!!

Seriously, i think i failed this time. I don't know why. I just do. This time, i won't come crying after ms ang, who eventually would give me a sheer smile in a form of sympathy. And what do i get from my form teacher? A fair warning saying that i could never get into the best class mainly because i'm not good enough.
I don't know if it's just a sarcastic comment or a sarcastic skill in order the straighten students up, i just feel that inserurity of me passing up my grades. I would just die for sec3/1. I seriously need to buck up. But today's maths test was such a failure. I felt so left behind. Besides, i had missed two days of lessons which made me damn bloody slow, i don't even think i could get my ones. Everyone used to praise me how hardworking i am. Honestly, i'm not. Everyone needs to study. Mainly because no one here in new town is clever. No one is. People try to console me by saying 'yes, you can do it. you will make it. e3/1 is without a doubt. you will for sure have positions there. Nothing is impossible.' Sometimes, i wish i could just shout out loud and demand everyone to just go and shut their mouth. Please, that's almost eveything that i've heard of other people. It's just sick. It's easy to say but not easy to do.
I'm such a failure in maths.Is it because i'm not into propotions and figures? Or am i better at algebra and soon i'll prove to everyone that i'm good?

Or am i just NOT good enough?

Lord, prove me wrong through today's science test, i pray, amen

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Hello. Nothing much today. Stress is getting on me.

My weekends are in ruins now. I haven't been studying. Urgh, omg. I deserved to be spanked. Science test tmr, so i gotta go work my bloody ass off.




Bye bye.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

I gotta say, if there was no Caroline, then there's no such thing called life.

Me; *goes into the room, slams down bag*
Me; *turns around and saw a body lying down, dead*
Me; OMGGGGG!!!!
Vera: Hurh? what?
Me; WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE?! i thought you were at sentosa???!!!
Vera: ALL THANKS TO YOU LA WA LAO! I HATE YOU FOR LIFE MAN!
Me; HA-HA-HA-HA.

So as you can see, my whole family is sick all thanks to me. And if any of my friends out there are sick too, don't you go looking and pointing at me.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

christina

What is this feeling coming over me?
I'm taken back in disbelief
Is this really me, ha! in the mirror I see?
Staring back at me:
Could it be? A new reflection of a woman complete
All of a sudden I'm so care-free (well alright)
'cause love is doing something strange to me (well alright)
Got a new flame, ha! haven't been the same
Something in me's changed, rearranged
And I feel that I've been saved

You got me feeling like you're that something I've been missing
Everything's heaven 'cause life with you has been a blessing
(Oh-oh oh-oh)
I got it bad in a serious way, oh yeah
(Oh-oh oh-oh)
Your love has brought me to a higher place, oh yeah
(Who knew? Who knew?)
It'd be you to restore my faith
Everyday, I'm amazed
And it makes me wanna get down and pray
Makes me wanna get down and pray
Said it makes me wanna get down and pray
Yeah-hey

I've kept some company I shouldn't have (well alright)
Made some mistakes but that's in the past (well alright)
I'm professing here to you
Proof that I am through
I'm coming clean
Now I can breathe and I finally believe, yeah

You got me thinking I'll be alright, and you're the reason
Ooh I can feel it, we're moving in a new direction

(Oh-oh oh-oh)
I got it bad in a serious way, oh yeah
(Oh-oh oh-oh)
Your love has brought me into a higher place, oh yeah
(Who knew? Who knew?)
It'd be you to restore my faith
Everyday, I'm amazed And it makes me wanna get down and pray
Makes me wanna get down and pray
Said it makes me wanna get down and pray
Makes me wanna get down and pray
Makes me wanna get down and pray

Ohh Where would I be?
Where would I be?
Without you by my side
Where would I be?
Where would I be?
Without you standing by
Makes me wanna (pray)
Makes me need to (pray)
When I'm feeling low and all alone, You're the light in my day, yeah
(Oh-oh oh-oh)
I got it bad in a serious way, oh yeah
(Oh-oh oh-oh)
Your love has brought me into a higher place, oh yeah
(Who knew? Who knew?)
It'd be you to restore my faith
Everyday, I'm amazed 'cause it makes me wanna get down and pray
'cause it makes me wanna get down and pray
Makes me wanna get down and pray
Woo, thank you father!
Wanna lift my hands up and pray
'cause everytime I'm hearing your name
Wanna reach out and rejoice Sound of your voice, yeah


{EDITED}

I feel desperate and sad. Oh yes i am, desperate it is. Ya know i feel like it's worse than being dumped by some guy and pouring out all your sorrows through the SOS hotline. Or, it could be worse than having the thought of jumping down from the 20th storey. Why am i desperate?
Its because,

I
.
LACK
.
SUGAR
.
AND
.
SODIUM
.

Urghhhh, medicine kills me, seriosuly. It's like everything that i put inside my mouth taste bitter. Now my body just crave for any sweet things. Coke, sugar, sweets are a few examples. But after the attempt to even find for one, i just gave up hope. So in the end i kinda smuggled Vera's sugus sweet which seriously is hard to get over it.
I should be stressing on history now. Thanks to the high fever i had this morning, the thermometer just made me cry after the beep sound, reading it's temperature a 38.5 degree celcius. Yes, a high fever. Mdm Neo demanded me to go home at once, so i skipped assembly and waited in the staff room.
Wasn't long after i got a lift home.
And once i entered the house, i took a shower, and *plong* fell back to bed, which i had been lacking of. My grandpop went hysterical when he sees me this morning. One word tataima (??)(i can't spell nor write jap characters) from me, he starts gabbing in japanese which i can't translate to english, much less chinese. But i heard this word benQ (??), which meant school. Can't recall, but i kn0w he's asking me why am i not in school this hour.

Kay, i gotta go find MORE sweet things to overcome it all. I hope i get better tmr, i've skipped two days of school mind you. And it's nothing to rejoice about, especially when you're fighting for positions to e3/1.
(My grandpop is gabbing jap again, i can't understand a single bit, well maybe a lil. My japanese accent is a lil strange and he can't seem to understand. I gotta go clear things out now.)

Okay, here are all your complains again. I can't seem to understand the term 'speak truth in Love'. As much as i tried to. All i want is to have this family all worked out perfectly fine. But somehow, i'm giving up hope, so i'de say a prayer and now it's all Yours.
Without me being around, everything seemed to be a mess. A simple sorry goes a long way and, it's as simple as that. Though i'm not in the wrong, and i can't even identify myself in the wrong, i'm always the one taking the initiative to apologise. I'm always the one giving in. But if this continues any further, then i'm through. I know quitting is not gonna work. Much less having a new cell grp or even going to a new church. I may not seem to take things to heart, but being in my position, i simply just cannot keep up. I'm tired of running towards you, mending your sorrows, but somehow, they've just gotta learn how to swim just like mine.

Like what daDDy said, i should always stay prayeful and have faith in Him. Their Yours anyway, i don't seem to care anymore, not that i don't love them, i'm just tired and i need a break. Juggling two families, school work and friends is not easy.

I still cannot get over my dad, and i believe that i would be able to meet him, somehow. I'de cry out loud if i have to.

It's not fair to me, it just isn't.

Carolineroberts
I'm genuinely exquisite and an extrovert
I have my moody days, everybody does, right?

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